True Friendships/Rant

Ya know, when I was younger I wanted friends. Then I wanted more friends. I wanted to be noticed. I wanted people to know who I was. The more friends I had the more satisfied I became. I felt good because of a number. Because so many kids recognized me. Then I wanted a certain class of kids to notice me. I wanted to be part of something that people looked up to. Then I'd pretend to like things I didn't like. Say things I didn't mean. Do things I wouldn't normally do... All just to fit in and become more accepted. If most of you were honest you would say that you have at some point felt you could relate. Aren't you glad we grew out of that?

I'm laying in bed browsing Facebook on my phone and looking at my comments and realizing how much some of these people really mean to me. They aren't some rich kid that I had to befriend by buying name brand shoes just like theirs or a punk I had to impress by getting a tattoo. These are my friends and my family. We talk about personal problems. We cheer each other on. We become each others source of motivation. We are each others help. It didn't require convincing, bribery or falsifying myself. I am myself and they are their own person and the openness that combination brings is one of those things that you can not live your life without knowing. Little comments like Jon's, "Goodnight Birthday Girl!" bring a smile to my face because it symbolizes our friendship. Relationships I have had with people from elementary are still going strong because the open honesty and completely idiotic confessions made between the two of us. You can't experience the genuine joy of a true friendship without letting the real-you lose and accepting the consequences of that action... Which you won't regret.

I see all these young people posting self taken pictures of themselves with the pouchy-lipped face, the myspace angles, the sucked-in-belly side mirror shots, the lets-pretend-I'm-sleeping-when-I'm-obviously-not shots, the multiple uploads of the same exact picture taken at a 1 degree difference... I feel so bad for those people because they are chasing a fantasy life. You don't always look perfect, you aren't going to impress anyone worth having in your life with shots like that and the people who are already your friends are going to look at you like an egotistic snob. There is no reality. There is no genuine friendship. The relationships you do have are based of false pretenses and you have just wasted half your cell battery and most of your day trying to impress someone you don't like. What sense does that make?

Okay, to finish the rant and to make a long story short, I Love You Guys (:


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