Tuesday

I've been slacking, I know. Anyhow, here's the news. My bird flew away!!!! It SUCKS!!! I miss him. I want him back so bad. I was even crying over the damn thing. I got attached to my little birdie :( But yeah. He's gone. He ran off yesterday. Something scared him and he flew out the door when I ran out there to get my license bc I was on the phone with a potential job person... I swear if I don't get that job I'm gunna be pissed the Fuck off... I still have Shane's bird. But mine was the nice one. The fun one. But he's gone now. I hate it. When Shane got home from work today he heard him outside so we followed the sound. Shane would whistle to him like he usually does, then the bird would whistle back to him. In the end he found him... a quarter mile back into the woods, but he found him. He was on the third branch up, sitting in a pine tree. But Shane couldn't climb up there. He tried. He got half way up then came back down. He's tired. His work takes a lot out of him... I wish I could climb trees. But anyways, on Shane's almost-second attempt to climb up there, he flew off before Shane even got to the tree. I feel a little bit better considering I know he's alive and he's happy. But I still miss him.

No more of him attacking my food when I try to eat. No more of him licking the ice off my popsicle's plastic. No more of him drinking out of the faucet when I'm trying to wash dishes. No more of him accidentally landing in our plates as we're eating dinner. No more of him dragging my fork away from me. No more of him leaping off the cage to sit on my shoulder. No more of him crawling up the leg of my pants to get to me. No more of him licking my face randomly. No more of him unintentionally biting my lip. No more of him nibbling on my hair when I get out of the shower. No more of him picking the keys off my laptop or chewing on it's cord. No more of him attacking my cell phone when I'm texting. No more of him mimicking the person on the other line when I'm on the phone. No more of him biting my pen when I write. No more of him biting my neck while he's trying to play with my necklace. No more of him running off with my memory card for my camera. No more of us whistling back and forth at each other. No more of him squalking when I leave the room. No more of him trying to fly to me when I'm cooking dinner and missing and landing on top of the shelf. No more of him trying to get sunflower seeds out of my mouth when I'm eating them. No more of him trying to eat the seeds through the container. No more of him chasing my hand down when I try to put more food in the cage. No more of Shane calling me Eve everytime he flies to me. No more of him biting the design off my shirt. No more bird feet tapping in the hallway when he walks back to the computer room to get me. No more curious birdie. No more happy birdie. No matter what was going on around here, or how much was going wrong, he was always happy. Cheered me up a lot. Kept me company when Shane's stuck on his game. I miss Stryker :'(

Saturday is here

I slept really good last night. Idk why, but I did. Lol. Actually this morning when Shane got up... I saw him get up, I felt him get up, I was laying on his chest... Lol And I even heard him peeing in the bathroom. But I didn't hear the alarm that went off. Which is what he got up to turn off. How is that possible? I was TRYING to listen to his feet so see where he was, but I didn't hear anything until I heard him peeing. You can't just sleep through that alarm. It's loud as hell.. but I remember everything else... I don't get it. Haha. So yeah, I slept REALLY well.

Then when we finally did get up this morning, at 7:30... and its a thirty minute ride to the shop, he's got to be there at 8... we were rushing a bit. Haha. And it was FREEZING! the house was 60 degrees. Lol The thermastat was set to 58. Way to go Shane! Asshole... Lol. Well, when I got to the shop apparently Janice, Russel and Calvin all put some money together and Janice took me shopping for some clothes. I only have 2 pair of pants to wear according to Shane... actually it's only one. But you know how guys are. Lol. Needless to say, I got me some new pants and 2 tshirts and bra's and underwear.. not that you need to know all that. Lol. I had a 200 dollar spending limit. We only spent 75... there wasn't really anything I wanted. Lol. So Janice is saving the other 125 for when I get a job. Then I can use that money to get clothes, bc we don't know what I will end up needing. Everywhere is different... But yeah, I thought that was really sweet of them to help me like that. I'm not used to people actually caring like that. To be honest half the time I really don't know how to take it. I mean I don't know how to react. Calvin alone has given us (Shane and I) about 800 dollars if not more. And 300 of that was spent on my car. 80ish for a battery and 230 something for an alternator.

It's nice to have people like that.. and they've only known me for what... since May. That's 3 months. 3 months and these people combined have given us well over a grand. When we first moved in here they bought us comforters, a microwave, an island for the kitchen, they gave us furniture, plus all that I've mentioned up there. Oh, and the other 500 (out of the 800) was groceries. They do so much for us. And it just amazes me, it really does. And the birds. Lol. I love them. Russel bought those for me. And Janice, she's always helping me with mailing things and offering to help with sending money to Jon. She was gunna do it through her bank in the form of a money gram. Then taking me shopping this time... and her and Russel payed the first payment for the internet and the phone for us. Calvin has the electricity in his name so we didn't need to make a down payment... which we did anyways, bc he had to go with a different company. They didn't have his usual company out where Shane and I live. But it's just nice to have people like that. That are willing to help you even tho they barely know you. Anyways, I'd love to sit and talk more, but I've got to go put the GPS up.. I forgot I left it out and on in the car. And I got to go work on doing some laundry. Haha. Chances are I'll write more later tonight. See ya!!!

Biiig Smiles!

I'M HAPPY TODAY!!! That's a nice start isn't it? Lol. I woke up to Shane putting my head on his chest after he got dressed for work. Just to spend a little time with me before he had to leave. Then he left and I went back to sleep. Haha. But after I got up I got to working on a little project I wanted to do for him. (Look to the left. Click on the image to make it larger.) I taught myself how to weave Duct Tape. Lol. Let me just say this... It was ANYTHING but easy. Haha. I started working on it the other night when Shane was behind me on Counter Strike.. when he's on that thing I could be leading a Marching Band right behind him and he'd never know. Lol. But anyways, I finally got to do it today bc I knew he had a full day of work and I didn't need to worry about him coming home early. I really have been feeling good these past few days. Ask me why, I'm not sure exactly. I mean I know that argument we had, had something to do with it. But in detail... I'm really not sure. Lol. But I am sure that there is a sunflower seed shell stuck in the back of my throat. Haha. Speaking of which...
When he came home today he gave me a bag of sunflower seeds (bc I'm an addict! Lol) and he stuck a flower in the corner of the bag =D That's where the big smiles come in. =D That made my day. Like, completely made my day... And it was so simple... Hehe, I think it was sweet. I'm not used to people doing things like that for me. I guess we were both kinda thinking along the same lines today. As I had Duct Tape and dinner plans for him and He had sunflower seed and flower plans for me. Lol. Maybe tomorrow he'll come home with another flower for me... this time poked into a 12 pack of Mountain Dew. Lol. Good Luck with that one, right? Haha. Hell, I'd even settle for the Mountain Dew :) Oh well. He's really sweet and I Love him. That's what counts =D I Heart Shane!!!

Anyways, these were the biscuits that I cooked with Dinner tonight. Yummy! Lol. I made that sauce they serve at Johnny Carino's with it too. Even more Yummy! Haha. Idk. I like doing stuff for him. He does so much for me and it makes me feel so good when he comes home from work, and see's something, like my Duct Tape work, then comes and catches me off guard, just spins me around and gives me a really big, long hug. I Love it. I love that look on his face too. It's almost like he doesn't know how to say thank you or idk. You can just tell that it means a lot to him. I Love that feeling :) The feeling that I did something right. Something that means a lot to him and he really appreciates it. It feels good. You have no idea. Lol Anyhow, I'm gunna head out now. I'm gunna go get me a drink bc these sunflower seeds really have my mouth dryed out. Haha. Later Peoples!!

Coco Puffs

That's what I'm eating lol. Today has been an overall good day. Got up when Shane left at 7 and sat on the comp for a lil bit then realized I was about to fall asleep in my chair so I went back to bed. Only to be later interrupted three times by morons calling asking if this was Southern Seeds... Do I sound like a Fucking Southern Seed? Probably not. So after going to bed for the 4th time, I got another phone call... but it was Shane :) So it was a happy phone call. Lol. And I didn't go to bed after that one. It was 11:27. That is the latest I have slept in, in the last 3 months... More than that actually. It's probably been close to a year now that I think about it. Anyways, now that you know about my sleeping habits, lets continue on about my day, shall we?

Most of my day I spent on the computer to be completely honest... but that's okay, bc I caught up with a friend of mine from Jax... I knew her since 2nd grade. Lol. It's funny bc both of our bf's are obsessed with Counter Strike and computers, we recently bought them the same exact shirt, they both smoke Marlboro, we both build with their cigs and swore that we'd never date a smoker... and ... there was something else. Lol. Okay, I don't remember, but it's hilarious how much we have in common when it comes to our bf's. Lol. Like the rediculus stories of the shit we did while they are glued to that game and they didn't even notice until later... "How long have you been there?" Lol. I rearranged the room while he was playing, Raye (the friend I caught up with) climbed in his window... Lol. Boys and their toys. Sucks... but oh well. Haha.

Later on Shane came home... of course. It felt good to have him back. I have actually been really happy since we had that arguement. I guess it put a lot in place for me. But yeah, I've just been feeling really good about things lately. Everything just seems to have more meaning. Well, it's not that there is all of a sudden more meaning, just that I'm a little more comfortable with showing my feelings now. So it feels different to me. But in any case, the feeling I got when I hugged him after he came home today... mm it just felt really good. I can't explain it. I was just happy and didn't want to let go. You know, those nice, warm hugs... Well, he's on the game again now... bor-ring! Lol. But it's okay. He's been helping me cook lately, and we don't watch a movie every night anymore either. I sleep good. It's nice for a change. Those movies grab my attention and I can't sleep. It's like taking a starbucks right before you go to bed. You're wide awake and your body has no desire to sleep but your mind is like COME ON! Sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep!!! Lol. Trust me it sucks. He does a lot to satisfy me and to help me. I want to do something special for him everyday. I mean, I'm home and he's at work and I just have this desire to surprise him with something, but Idk what to do. All I can think of is making heart shapped buiscuts for dinner. Lol. Eh, I'll figure it out eventually. Anyhow, it's off to bed for me. Later guys. Thanks for reading! Haha...

Reading Rainbow....

I've come to the realization that...

I have issues. That's a shocker isn't? But in all seriousness... I got some habits I picked up one and I got to change them. And it isn't going to be easy. I got depression problems along with a few other things. But that bad part isn't the problem. The Real problem is I take it out on the wrong person. I take it out on Shane. And it sucks. Bc I don't realize it until he's upset and screaming about how he doesn't deserve it. And he's right. It wasn't until he said that, that I realized that what I was complaining about wasn't worth it. I mean.. he said something to me later on. Something along the lines of what's going on in my head is making me try and find problems. Almost like I'm irritated, so I'll take it out on someone, but it's not like that. It's more... whatever is going on in my head, I just... I have this thing that bothers me, and I'll cling to it and use that to blame when I feel down or depressed. And while it makes sense to me... I can't see it. It's one of those things that.. ya know. It's you. It's in your own head, but you don't see it. Now, maybe Shane's right. Maybe that is the problem. He's like me when it comes to evaluating people and understanding the subconscious of a person. So I don't just take it lightly just bc I can't see it. Sometimes when it's happening to yourself, you can't see it. That's what friends and relationships and parents are for... even tho we don't listen to our parents too much. Well, with me, if Dad was telling me something, I'd listen and take it to heart wether I showed it or not. Bc I know how he is with understanding people. With Mom... I knew she didn't have the same understanding and sh... well, I'm not getting into that. Anyways, back on topic...

Let me tell you a little about Shane.. He grew up here in South Carolina. His childhood wasn't exactly the greatest. He grew up on a farm for a while, for how long, I'm not sure. But he had it rough. I'm not going into detail, let's just say this... Don't complain to him about your past, he'll have a story to top yours. Believe me, I've tried. It sucks, but I can't win. Lol. In High School he was always getting in fights. The crazy, careless, tough guy I guess. He was forever in handcuffs from what I hear him and his parents say. Eventually they were going to exspell him... between that and the stuff he was going through at home he decided to move down to Florida and stay with his Dad. (They divorced when he was 6 I believe. Not sure.) While in Florida, he went to bootcamp, skipped from 9th to 12th grade, and graduated at 16. Smart kid, Great with technology. Even taught a class at his school on computers. He was still the trouble maker tho, but a respected one. You know the guys who are always causing trouble but have it in good with the authority? That's him, not bc he's a suck up, but bc they know it's not an act and bc they respect him. Fair enough? Okay, let's move on... After 5 years of being in Florida he left to go back home to the wonderful state of South Carolina. Apparently he was having trouble in Florida too. So he gets back and gets in touch with some old friends and gets back into some old habits. Some habits he never really left, just didn't show... but in any case... he's back home. Still a trouble maker. Still has problems, get's in trouble with the law. The regular rebellious teen, right? Keep reading...

When I first met him, we clicked. We met while he was in Florida. We mainly talked online, but it didn't matter. It was the conversation and the personality that kept us together. We were Best Friends for years. Always laughing, talking, spilling out our fears and our problems. Always being each others Dr Phil. It sucked when he told me he was moving back to South Carolina. I hated to hear that... but ya know. It happened. After he moved we really didn't talk much. He got in two or three relationships and I'd give him adivce on them when we talked, but usually he wasn't online at all. I think it was close to a year that I just didn't talk to him. I wanted to but jealous girl, busy schedule, never online... you know how it is. Well the last relationship went bad, like I told him it would a year ago. He was talking to his Mom about it after it ended and soon after I moved down here I was talking to her and she told me that one of the first thing's he said to her was, "Kristin told me this was gunna happen." It was a night or two after that he got on and we picked up where we left off. Talking and laughing again. One day he was joking around saying something about me going to see him. I told him I would if I had the cash. Well, he had the cash... and I had vacation time. So it was set. Off I go.

Now, I told you about how he grew up so you can know the steriotype. Get an idea of who he is... only so I can tell you you're wrong. Lol. He isn't your crazy teen who has no goals in life, goes on bumming off everyone. Jobless, careless. Severe lack or respect for everyone. The relationships that he get's into are meaningless... None of that is him. He is the type of person that will shock the hell out of you bc he's nothing like what he seems. If he was really a hard headed punk then... well, for one, I wouldn't be with him. Lol. But he wouldn't be as sweet as he is to me. Now seriously, make a mental list of all the qualities you want in a guy. Now imagine finding him... but then realizing that this guy you found.. not only has the qualities you listed, but sooo much more that you didn't even think about. I mean this guy... MY guy (lol), has supported me for the last 3 months that I've been here in SC. I still don't have a job (I really hope this interview goes through!)... but he's still there for me, reguardless. He fixes my car when it breaks, he's brought me breakfast in bed. When I cry he won't skip a beat, he's right there holding me and consoling me. If I am depressed or worried about something, it doesn't matter if I try to hide it, he knows. He understands me like no one else ever has and it's so unreal bc you've always imagined the perfect someone, but until you've experienced it.. you don't know what you're missing. When he hugs me and tells me he loves me, it feels so good. And what's better is to know he means it. And not only that.. having a relationship with someone, after you have been Best Friends with them for a while and know each other so well, it's a really good feeling. bc you feel like you've known each other forever. No exaggeration. When you find the right person... I mean, you really don't remember the beginning. It's like they've just always been there. At least that's how it is with me.

Getting back on topic... When you've known someone as a friend before you get with them, there really isn't any guessing involved. I mean, you just know them so well already, you've already got most of the ground covered. You don't know how nice it is to sit here in this computer room, sitting in a nice cumfy office chair with my feet propped up on the glass top to my new desk that Shane got me yesterday... typing on my laptop that's in my lap (where else would a LAPtop be?) knowing, that he did it all for me. This LIFE that he gave me. That HE is supporting (so far... til I get me job :D ) it was all done for ME. Of all people. It makes no sense. You really don't know how happy it makes me to think that someone would do that for me. I mean he was perfectly content sitting at home playing Counter Stike and hanging out with his friends all the time, having no bills, no one to nag at him (lol), no one to answer too. Getting paid 60 bucks (plus) a day in cash and not having a care in the world... But he'd rather be broke, living with me in our little trailer... it ain't no piece of shit, so you don't get to call me trailer trash. Sorry to burst your bubble. Lol.

Ugh, I just can't tell you how happy he makes me. Really. Waking up every morning to the alarm clock going off.. then he gets dressed and lays back in bed next to me playing with my hair, kissing my face, and just holding me until Russel comes to pick him up on his way to work... Half the time I'm still sleeping. He just enjoys doing it... and I love being pampered. Lol Then he comes home from work and I get a really dirty hug, but I don't mind bc it's warm and always followed by a kiss and an "I Love You." Knowing he's at work to support US. He sacrifices a lot to be with me and I usually don't realize it much anymore... I mean, it's just routine. And I don't mean to get caught up in routine and not appreciate things, but it happens to everyone, ya know. Ugh, I don't know. I could go on with this conversation for muuuuch longer, buuuuuuut... it's late, and I can't think. So I'm gunna have to call it quits. Lol. Just know that when you hug someone and hold them close, and you feel that warmth, and know that that person loves you as much as you love them... it's the Best Feeling in the World!

Another Saturday

Saturday, saturday. What a Saturday. Lol. Nah, nothing happened today. I couldn't sleep worth shit last night tho. It sucked ass. Between Shane kneeing me, being smushed up against the wall, and an ant biting me... it was one hell of a night. I didn't get any sleep until Shane got out of bed to get ready for work. But the thing is... he gets up, gets ready and gets dressed, then gets back in bed again. Lol. Until Russel comes and honks the horn. Then he kisses my forehead and runs out the door. So needless to say I woke up again after I was asleep for like 5 minutes. But when he left for work a little after 7 I finally got some sleep. Only til 10, but it's better than nothing.

Anyhow, when he came home from work he brought a friend. It's a giant horned beetle. Apparently it's more rare than... what did that site say.. Idk. It's more rare than it's close relative that's found mainly in Asia. But yeah, it's like half the size of your palm. Shane made me go buy the thing bananas... Damn bug gets better treatment than I do. Lol But that's okay. I got a pineapple and a yoohoo out of the deal. Haha. I had one of the baggers trying to flirt with me. Some old guy. He was trying to trick me by asking me how many horses I had on my hat... uh, one. "You sure?" Yes, it's MY hat. Lol. Weird peoples. O well.

Blah... right now I'm bored as hell. Shane is on Counter Strike yet again, and I'm here typing a blog trying to take up some time. You should have seem how many Fucking bulletins I posted on Myspace the other day.. Waaaaayy too many. And I did them all while Jackass was on his damn game. Yeah, I call him a Jackass. I also call him a Bitch and a Whore.. but it's all code for "I Love You" Lol. You should hear us around the house, it's hilarious sometimes. We'll just go on this streak of name calling. Never meaning any harm, just going until one of us has a brain fart.. which never really takes too long. Lol.

Hm.. last nights movie was Ace Ventura: When Nature Calls. The night before that it was Ace Ventura: Pet Detective. We watch movies nightly... and pay nothing for them. Haha. Ugh, sometimes I really don't know what the point of these things are, but other times it's nice to hold a conversation.. .even tho it's most likely with nobody. Lol. I really don't know if anyone ever reads this thing, but it helps me pass the time while Bozo over here is on his dumb game.

Ugh.. I couldn't tell you how much I hate that thing. One thing that really gets to me once in a while is the fact that he's so happy on it. I mean it kinda makes me feel bad bc... Idk. It's like I can't make him happy enough to want to be with me instead of that game. I know that's not how it is. I just feel like that sometimes. He gets on there and he's laughing and talking to his friends or whatever and talking about clans and teams and coding and all kinda of computer stuff... sometimes I wish that I could just hit a button and know all about all that stuff so he'd... Idk. Spend more time with me I guess. Like tonight when I cooked dinner, he wanted me to eat in the computer room with him bc he was still trying to help his friend on the computer. But when I went in there he was on the game and I asked him about it and he told me he's waiting for him to finish eating.. WTF? Then he changed the story again and said he was helping the other guys level up by letting them kill him... but if that were the case then why would he message them and apologize for playing so bad bc he was playing with one hand and trying to eat? So the way I saw that was... he wants to play that game so bad that he lies to me. It just... Idk. He gets so into it and I just feel really left out. When he's on the game I usually try to stay in there with him. I just mess around on my computer. But then when I try to talk to him, he doesn't hear me... I say it again, still no luck. Then I leave... and he doesn't even notice. Then maybe 30 minutes later he'll come out and I'll ask why he got off the game and he'd say, I turned around and you weren't there. And don't think that trick will work all the time... it doesn't. He'll find me, ask if I'm okay, I'll say yes, he know's I'm lying, but he just wants to get back on the game so he says ok, gives me a hug, and goes right back there. That's when I'm left standing there, staring at where he was just standing and wanting to burst into tears bc I want him to spend time with me and not that game. It really hurts sometimes. And I know he doesn't mean any harm by it... I try not to let it get to me but sometimes it just builds up and I can't help but let it bother me. Idk.

Anyways, I've rambled on long enough about the game and my issues and everything else. So I'll talk with you guys later. See ya...

Happy 08.08.08!!!

I had an interview today at 2 o'clock. I think it went really well. I like the environment, the people seem friendly. So I'm looking forward to getting this job. She said I'd hear from her before the end of next week. So let's hope I actually hear from her. I really need a job... Lol.

Anyways, when I first got up today I had a text and a missed call from Jon. He paid the tickets for me this morning. Only there was a 35 dollar fee added on for some reason. The only thing I can think of is it's because the tickets were paid on the day they were due instead of the day before. He had to stand in another line to keep my license from being suspended... Ugh. So I got to send him another 35 in the mail. He's already got 161 going to him for the initial cost of the tickets. Yes, tickets. Plural.. one was for speeding, the other was for the address on my license not being updated. Which I still need to get done as I moved again. I need to get South Carolina tags still too. But I can't just do one. I got to do them both. How's it going to look if I get pulled over with a South Carolina ID and a FL tag? So that's another 60ish bucks out of my pocket... well, Shane's pocket. Lol. Unless I get this job. (cross your fingers) So I got to throw it out there THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR HELPING ME OUT JON!!!

Dad called today. We talk a lot now. And apparently Mom is accusing him of some more stuff that I'm not going to post bc it would be mean and unfair and not only that... I'd be stooping to her level. So I'll leave it alone. I haven't talked to her since she emailed the entire family business about my Aunt that is no one's business but my Aunt's. Don't get me wrong, my Mom is a good person. I mean, she's got a good heart. But when you get on her bad side she's got a certain extreme about her. And she'll go cry to everyone else about it, gain their pity, and in the end you've got no where to go because everyone see's you as the bad guy. Spiteful... sucks.

I'm just sitting here now. Not really doing anything. Well, typing this obviously. But that's about it. Cooked dinner a while ago. Shane helped me. I love when he does that :) We just had seasoned pork, macaroni and cheese, and spinach. All I really ate was the macaroni and a bite of the other two. I just haven't really felt too great the past few days. Don't wanna eat for whatever reason. And now that I mention that I feel like I got a headache coming on. Woo! Okay, so that's not a good thing. But you get the point. Lol. Well I think I'm gunna call it a night. I need to see if Shane has any or that Seroquel that I can take. No, it's not for pain. I don't take meds for pain. I just want to have a good nights sleep, that's all. Haha. Maybe I'll ask Shane to play with my hair tonight too. It puts me to sleep. It feels good. Calms me. Anyhow, that's it for now. See ya guys.

So today...

Today was actually a pretty busy day for me. I left the house at 10 this morning. I went to Walmart and bought some Lawry's, cue tips, and some popsicles. Yum. Lol. Then I left and went to pay Allstate, then I went and paid on my loan... which wasn't easy as I had no idea where that bank was. See, it's my Florida account, but I guess it was their sister bank or something. So I had Janice in the phone at the shop looking up addresses and whatnot... she found it for me. Yay Janice! Lol. So I got that done. Then I went to TRY and pay my tickets... God was that a mess. I went to the license place, they didn't accept ticket payments, a lady told me to go to the court house. So I went there and man... I was so lost. Everything was no parking or reserved parking. There were no normal parking places. I did find some kind of Detention Center or something back there. Yay... NOT.

Anyhow, I left and went back to the shop to ask Janice and the guys about where I'm suppose to go to pay it and they told me that I can't pay out of state tickets there. I had to do it in FL... which isn't good because they are due tomorrow and I'm in South Carolina. Haha. So... I called to see if Dad could pay it and I could put the money in the mail tomorrow. But he didn't have the time. Mom is mad at me.. so I asked my bestest buddy Jon.. and YAY he's paying them for me tomorrow and the money is in the mail now. Woo! Only I don't have anything but temporary checks so I gave Janice the money and she's wrote a check for me. I love it when people help. I'm so not used to it at all... Lol. The people here have helped me sooo much. And they have only known me for 3 months... it's amazing. They are good people. I love being around them.

After I finally got he ticket situation done with, I left to go get CJ some food at McDonalds... and damn was that a long line. But I noticed when I was in line that the motor on my window seemed weak. Then after placing my order I went to turn my radio back up and it was off. I couldn't turn it back on. So I turned off the AC, unplugged the radar, unplugged the GPS, and then the light on my radio slowly came back on... my battery... AGAIN. I looked on the dash and it was so close to low it was rediculus. I just replaced it a month ago. Well, Calvin replaced it for me. He's one of the people who has helped me a lot since I've been down here... now if only he'd stop calling me Krystal. Lol.

Well I went back to the shop and gave CJ his food and left to get some toilet paper before I went back to the house. So I stopped by the Dollar General which is right across from Walgreens. So before I went in, I called them and talked to the hiring manager about my application and she told me to come on in. I warned her I wasn't exactly dressed to impress, but she laughed and said it was fine and to just come on in. So I ran into the Dollar Store and bought the toilet paper, but when I went back to my car to leave.. it wouldn't start. Nothing but clicks. My batt was dead as hell. So... I called the shop to ask Calvin for another jump... I got the busy signal for 10 minutes straight. Finally I got through and he said he'd be there in about 20 minutes. He had to wait for Janice to get back. She ran out to get something. So I ran across to Walgreens to see about that job. I went in and after figuring out what was going on with my application not showing up she finally found it and asked me to come in for an interview tomorrow at 2 o'clock! Freakin Finally!!! So I left... back to Dollar Store. Back to my stupid car. Back to waiting on Calvin. He showed up and jumped me and took me back over to Advance Auto Parts... they had to give me a new Alternator... Great. Only when I went to leave (they didn't install the Alternator, Shane was going to later) the car wouldn't crank at all. Clicks, that's it. Even with a jump.. nothing. I gassed as I cranked... still nothing. Finally it started up. They said, just don't turn it off until you're home and in the shade so Shane won't have to change it in the heat... so that's what I did. Now I'm home, I cooked dinner. Steak, peas, and fried rice. Shane's on the game again... I'm here... again. Doing what I do best. Wasting time and telling you about my busy day... which my day's usually arn't this interesting. So it can't be that much of a waste this time around.

So that about sums it up. I'm gunna go find me a movie to watch before Shane picks something lame and takes 30 minutes to pick it... So see ya later peoples. And wish me luck on my interview!!! and THANKS SO MUCH JON FOR HELPING ME OUT!!! You have no idea how much I appreciate it! Byes!

Todays Events

Nothing really went on today. Just the usual seeing as Shane is still on Counter Strike and I'm sitting here typing a blog about it. I cooked dinner, and that's about it. I feel like shit at the moment. That's a new one. It sucks... I'm almost tempted to take something for it. And I just don't take meds unless I'm in the hospital and they're being fed to me through an IV. Anyhow, about my job hunt. I called Ms Lady and she was busy, so I left a message, and of course I still haven't heard anything about it. Looks like I'm gunna be calling them again tomorrow. Woo!

I'm talking to Jon on Aim at the moment... he's over here analyzing his cats Psychological well being. Way to go Eddy. Lol. He accidentally left his cat outside for 2 days and he just remembered last night. But his kitty was hiding in the backyard the entire time. Lol. The things we do... anyways, what to talk about... I need to buy toilet paper... Lol. I'm at a blank spot here. Don't really know what to say anymore but then again I got a song playing in the background thats very uhm... interesting. Lol

It doesn't help that Shane is making all sorts of noise over there on that Damn game of his. Maybe I should learn to hack things and completely Bomb the main server... if that's how it works. Lol. Just give them a really big, replicating, untraceable, Monster Virus that will make the history books. I bet it'll leave a bunch of the mindless Counter Strike followers just sitting there looking at their desktops wondering what to do now... I mean they spend all their time in front of that Damn computer. Spending grocery money on 200 dollar video cards (Shane) and almost 40 dollar processors (Shane). I've learned the hard way to hate that thing. But I think my reasons come 100% justified... In anycase, I try to keep my mouth shut about it and just let him do it. That's what any loving Girlfriend would do, right? If not, let me know. It'll give me anothe reason to bitch. Lol.

Well I'm getting off here and I'm gunna go find a movie to watch so it can buffer and take up all the net speed so his game will be all laggy. See, there are always ways to get back at people without having the blame come back and bite you in the ass... until he decides to read all these. I told him I got a site. I gave him the link. I told him I do daily (almost daily, lol) blogs... so it's his own fault if he doesn't want to read them. So ha. Anyhow, I'm outta here. See ya!!! Leave me some Comment Lovin Peoples!

Here I am AGAIN! Yay!

Alright, I'm back. Stupid site is no longer under maintenance. Woo. Anyways, today wasn't very exciting. (I'm listening to a guy on Shane's game who is 14 years old and he's got like a super deep voice. I told him he should narrate for a Horror Film. Hehe.) I went up to the shop today to bring Shane my iPod, a complete waste of gas IMO but ya know, I did it. So I don't wanna hear shit about wasting gas if I wanna go the Beach that's 5 minutes away to watch the sunset... gas is the usual excuse unless it's him wanting something. Oh well. That's life, right? Other than going to the shop I didn't really do anything today. I talked to Dad later this afternoon and then Shane got home and I cooked dinner. And then he got back on his game... which is where he is now. And I finished dinner at 5:30. It's now 8:19. He was on it for an hour and a half before I even started dinner too so.. yeah. That's his life. Too bad it's got to be mine too. I really don't know what else there is to say. There really wasn't much that went on today. Kinda sucks, but ya know. It was a good day over all. At the shop we were having fun. Then once he got home later on is when I got kinda irritated. But it happens. I still love him.. try to at least. Haha. Just kidding. Well I'm gunna get off here and try and drag him with me. And I'm gunna try and find a movie to watch so he doesn't spend forever on the computer trying to find one. It annoys the hell out of me. Alright, so enough talking. I'm out. See ya!

Bored and irritated

Ugh... Life. What a mess. Anyways, today started with running to Walgreens this morning to take some kind of Skills Assessment Test. Can anyone say "Bor-ring!" It was filled with subtraction problems, and matching "Sonia Haynes" to "Sonia Haynes." The tricky part was one of the options was "Sonia Hayes"... stupid, right? Anyways, you can tell that was an aced Test. But the stupid thing had to error on me. It said complete, but there's really no telling. Anyways.. I'm supposed to call tomorrow evening when the Hiring Manager comes back in. So hopefully, they'll skip the bullshit and just line me up for an interview, which I'll also ace. Lol. Ugh, and this site is about to go into Maintenence AGAIN... so I'm gunna have to add more later. That or conveniently forget. O well. Later guys.

Complex Perfection

I was talking to Cj, a friend of mine, the other day. And he gave me an idea of a Rant... Perfection. What is Perfection? Perfection is an ideal setting for a given scenario, person, etc. The thing is, there is no set example of Perfection. That is the one thing that is truly beautiful about Perfection. It allows for creativity, it gives you what you want. You make with it what you will, and YOU have the right to define it. Ready for a few examples?

Let's start with relationships... What are the traits you would want to find in your "Perfect" significant other? Me, I'd want someone sweet, giving, thoughtful, kind, gentle, intelligent, simple. Someone honest and trustworthy, someone who is themselves and is completely comfortable with it. Someone open, caring and surprisingly resourceful. Yet someone who doesn't flaunt their skills and try to show off and be better than everyone else. Someone that has respect and sticks up for what they believe in. That's a lot to ask for isn't it? lol (I got him tho!) I asked a friend of mine, Matt, what he though was perfect traits for his ideal girl. He gave me a few things... "Witty, creative, attractive, cunning, caring, charismatic." Kimberly gave me this, "sympathy, respect, response, security, support, and that feeling that they would go to the end of the earth for you and back if they had to." Josh got a little more specific... "She would love football, hates the jags just so we can fight about them. Kinda like video games but is not obsessed with them. Is smart, witty, funny, and has a job and wants to go somewhere in life." Can't argue with that one... Samantha responded with this.. "From my experience, it's not about looks or how many friends he has, or how 'cool' he looks when he takes you out....when it comes down to it, the perfect qualities in a guy are honesty, loyalty, and someone who's authentic and real. it's hard to find, but that's what I think at least." High five to that one! lol. Anyways.. Here's what was said when I asked about a Perfect evening...

Tina said that her idea of a perfect evening is "Him [Jake, her husband] making dinner without me having to ask. Just being able to sit and watch TV with him for a while without any one annoying us." Simple enough. A basic down to earth idea of a perfect evening. Then I asked Ray what he thought would be a perfect dinner date. This is what he said. "An ideal dinner date for me would be dinner at a really relaxed atmosphere restaurant (Chilis or Fridays). Then, maybe walking around the city, having some coffee or seeing a good flick that's out." Again, it's simple. This time it involves going out and being active not just staying home. Then I asked Megan... "Chillin out reading a book with a Smirnoff in one hand and a pack of cigs in the other with Sexi men with no shirts catering to my every need...that's a perfect evening." So... some of us like the more drastic things, huh? lol The last person I asked was Karina. Here's her response, "When everything flows well regardless of sticking to plans or not. There is no awkwardness and everyone is sincerely enjoying each others company. It doesn't matter what your doing as long as you have those things going for you."

See how everyone has their own idea of Perfection? How you make it what you want. It's your treasure, your goal, your secret, your wish.. everything about it is what you make it out to be. There is no one to tell you that your Perfection is wrong. Its a complete toss up, you're own fantasy. Perfection is amazing as it has no limitations. "Our body hungers for perfection, our heart desires for perfection, our mind reaches perfection. We must seek perfection, touch perfection, and feel perfection." What's your Perfection?