Happy Halloween!

I spent the morning working in photoshop and playing DDR to pass the time. So far so good. I have had no trucks, no visitors, no nothing since I've been here. Oh well. Today is the last day I work until November 6th... I also have a doctors appointment that day. And the fair started yesterday. Hopefully I can drag Shane to it tomorrow bc I get paid today =)

Omg, my stomach feels like shit. I feel like I'm gunna get sick. Come to think of it, my face feels like I've got a fever. Not to the touch, but you know how you get that slightly cold chill to your face when you're sick? It's not cold, it just seems that way. You can tell its on the inside of you so-to-speak as opposed to your skins temperature. Idk how to explain it. But yeah. That's probably not a good sign. But as long as I stay well long enough to ride every coaster at that fair... then I'm okay.

Hm, I know Valentines is quite a way off, but I want to start thinking of something to do for Shane. I should be thinking about Christmas or something, which I am but only to an extent. One thing I am definitely going to miss is Christmas at home. It always seemed like a Happy, Cheerful, Funfilled holiday. Felt like there was really something to be excited for. But here, I don't think it's going to feel that way. It's just me and Shane... and I know Shane isn't too big on holidays to begin with. I'm kinda dreading Christmas to be honest with you. Back home we always had a Giant family get-together at someone's house... I say Giant bc I've got a big family. There are people there that I don't even know. And that's sad. Last year we had it at Moms house... bc we finally have a house big enough. Well, HAD a house big enough. They still have it, but I don't. I down graded. Lol. But yeah, Idk. There was always something going on at church or work or with friends or with my family. There were always cards coming in that Mom would tape up to the wall or the door. It's about the only time Grandpa comes over. The little stockings Mom made for us that we've had for years. Mine with a little Santa Claus hat that is cute when you flop it right on top of Santa's face. Even tho I hated wrapping gifts, I'm going to miss it. The dollar store Christmas paper and the boys bugging me about what their gifts are bc they know I'm the one that wrapped it. Mom throwing a gift at me, then telling me she's had it for a while. And that she thinks I'm going to like it. They way that Mom always says “this is going to be a small Christmas” but the stockings are always over flowing and we always get more than we need. Yeah, there's a lot I'm going to miss this Christmas.

First truck of the morning. Mar-leta AKA Wood Specialty. 4:23. It's almost 5. That's the time I wait for. Bc once you hit 5, 7 isn't far off. And by the time 7 rolls around its 8 before you know it. And the trucks get more frequent and soon enough it's 9:15... 45 minutes. Take out a piece of paper and start drawing. 9:30... Almost there. 9:45. Start gathering my stuff together and cleaning up a bit. If Toni is relieving me, she'll be in soon. If it's Jennifer, she'll arrive between 5 and 2 minutes til. So either way, the time shoots by. It's just waiting for 5. 5:30 is the time when some of the supervisors start coming in and a few of the employees. At 7 is the shift change. So there's a lot of people moving around. Then Teresa stops in at about 4 minutes until 8 to grab all the paper work from the previous day. Always pulls up with the music goin, leaves her car door open. Says good morning, and comments that the room feels good (bc it's nice and warm) then gets back in her Explorer and off she goes to the supervisors parking lot. The people are pretty predictable around here. But that's alright. Makes my job easier... not that it needs to be any easier. If there's not a truck in front of that window... then we arn't doing a Damn thing. And when there is one all we do is click either Arriving, Leaving or Loaded, Empty. Type in the truck number, trailer number, what they're carrying, who they're carrying for, and the computer weighs it for you. So all you do is print it out, hand it to the trucker man, write down the time, and that's it. They could have a computer do this job. Hell, the truckers could do this job. Pull up to a little ATM machine thing, and they put in what they need to. The only problem with that is some truckers don't know how to read a map, and come to the wrong plant, others don't know what the hell their own name is let alone what's on their truck, and then you have the stupid one's who just.. I mean. No, I'm not going there. Just trust me. I run into idiots. Which is probably why the pay sucks, but then again so do the hours, which they should increase our pay for. Lol. All in all, this shift really isn't too bad.

4:44. My stomach still hurts, my eyes are still heavy and I still can't go home yet.. Come on 5 o'clock. 15 more minutes. I think time should start skipping seconds for me a little at a time so no one would notice. Lol. I'm slouching like Hell right now. I feel like Fletcher. Only I'm not picking my nose or scratching myself. Idk, I might pick my nose later... Lol. Nah, my left side has been bleeding randomly lately. So I gotta shove tissue up there once in a while... not that you wanna know all that. And I don't wanna hear “Ewww” either... you act like you've never had to do it before.

I felt like a little kid when I looked down earlier. One side of my shirt was longer than the other bc I skipped a button. Lol. 4:50. Mar-leta Trucking is outta here. 10 more minutes. Hey I wanna try something...

<(o.O<) <(O.O)> (>O.o)> <(O.O)> <(o.O<) -He's exercising.

@-;-- -Want a Rose?

There used to be more. I don't remember them all. Lol. Ricky just came in again with Pollard. He's kewl. Now I understand what Shane's talking about all the time about me talking too fast and too low, bc that's what this guy does. But I just pay attention REALLY good and I can understand it. Lol. That and going back to second grade and understanding what they call “context clues.” Lol. I remember an episode of Reading Rainbow talking about that actually. It was a book about a giraffe and a gift.. and a king I think. I'm not sure. But I remember it... kinda.

I wanna go to the Fair...
I WANNA GO TO THE FAIR
I wanna go to the Fair...
I WANNA GO TO THE FAIR
I wanna go to the Fair...
I WANNA GO TO THE FAIR
I wanna go to the FUCKING Fair!!! Lol... well I do.

I'm bored, don't mind me. Omg... I really hope I don't feel like shit at the Fair. Bc I'm just sitting still and I feel nauseated... a coaster might push that limit. Just a tad... I've never gotten sick from a coaster. The only things I've even thrown up over was from just being sick.. and once from taking liquid cough medicine. Mom was getting irritated and was telling me to take it. And I told her multiple times, if I take it I'm going to throw up. I feel it... So in the end I took it... and I threw up. I hate liquid cough medicine. Pills please. I'm not a fan of those little gel things either, but I prefer them to the liquid. I prefer dry pills that aren't jelly. If they have some of those for cough medicine I'll take them... if I'm desperate. I don't take meds unless I have to. And I mean HAVE to. I have never taken pain killer for being on my period and cramping like most of the whiny girls in High School who always complained about it. Grow the Fuck up and stop being a sissy. Seriously. I know people to pop pills for just feeling a very SLIGHT headache... uhm, why? You're an idot. They're gunna end up growing immune to morphine if they keep that up. Haha. Could you imagine someone being immune to morphine for using it too much? Or Lortab. God, that shit knocks me on my ass. It takes the pain away, I'll give it that. But Damn. I'm drowsy as hell. Take one of those and a Seroquel, my ass is out in 30 minutes.

5:21- A Urea truck coming in. Almost 5:30 =) That means I'm gunna start having some peoples come in. Yay! It's sad that watching cars come in the plant is exciting for me. But there really is nothing to do here. Lol. I'm gunna try my luck at more DDR. Bbs.

Hehe. Between games and trucks and a good conversation with Jason, the Elliot driver it's now 7:30. Woo! You know what that means? 2 and a half more hours! And I'll be outta here. Fair tomorrow I hope. Certainly not tonight. I'm not getting my check til late. Jennifer is going to bring it home with her after she takes her son James trick or treating. So yeah. It saves me in gas to have to come back up here and get it and not only that, Shane works a full day today. Saturday he works half a day. So he can spend most of it on Counter Strike, as usual... THEN we can go to the fair =) Watch him say no, we don't have the money... Oh, I'll find the money. We have 100 bucks in just change. Don't tell me we don't have money. Lol. And that's not counting the change we have in my car that I haven't cleaned out yet. I keep that there so if I need a drink or something at work I'll have it if I don't have any dollar bills... which suck anyway bc the machine is so Freakin picky! That dumb machine. It's like... inny minnie miney moe... nope. I don't want that one. Try again. Lol. It's lame. Blah. 7:36. Teresa should be here in 20 minutes. Maybe 18. No sooner. Nah I'll go with 19. 7:57. We'll see. It's either 3 or 4 til. She likes to push it. Lol. Intimidating the clock is one of her past times. Well, it's past my getting off time, so I'm gunna run. I shall write more later and inform you on either the thrill of the fair (and finally having something to do) or the disappointment of not going (along with the name and number of the Hospital I checked Shane into). =) Later!

Two-Oh-Six...seven

Working again at the usual time. Cold as hell. There is a freeze warning until 9am. Fun stuff. I really need to get some antifreeze in my car. Lol. I can live in Florida's winters with it like it is. But not here. I wanna see snow! But I doubt that I will. Doesn't change the fact that I want to tho! Lol. I got some company first thing this morning today. Tim, the electrician was out here working on the scales, so the scales are down right now bc he's pumping something out of it. So yeah. Even tho that was a short conversation it was still a conversation. Let's just hope I don't wind up having a conversation with one of the rats in the roof. Because I hear them moving around now. They warned me about those things, but I've yet to see one. So I guess it's just about that time.

Shane was a little whore this morning. Little brat. I went to go give him a hug and kiss before I left. He pushed me away from him, turned his head, and said nothing but “mhm.” Yeah I know it's 1:30am and he probably just went to bed an hour ago. But still. That's a sucky feeling. Lol. Oooh. And he had me so pissed this morning. I went to go grab my cup out of the fridge... I keep it in there so it's always “in use” and I don't have to go hunt it up. Well it was gone. I went in the computer room and of course it was there. Along with 4 other cups, 2 bowls, silverware, and some fat left over from the leftover steak he ate. Not to mention all the laundry I had to step over and go thru at 12:30am bc his dumbass don't know how to pick up after himself. I was so irritated. I'm so tempted to just make him do his own laundry. Or just all the stuff he leaves laying around the house, throw in a garbage bag and when he goes to look for it either say “Idk” or tell him about the whole garbage bag situation. And his dishes. OMG, you just don't know how pissed I was at him this morning. The LAST Fucking thing I need to be doing at 12:30 in the morning is picking up dishes and laundry for someone who is completely capable of doing it himself. OMG, I could go on with this rant for hours but I'm not going to bc I'm only going to fuel myself up and I need to talk with him about it before I do that... Mom always told me I'd get back all the problems that I gave her. But I thought she meant in a child, not my boyfriend. OMG... I need to change topics. I'm fuming. Lol.

I don't know what to say now... That's the only thing I can think about. Other than the fact that my brothers birthday was yesterday and Mom was suppose to have them call me after they got home from school but never did, and I was going to call before I went to bed, but I was so doped up by then that there was no way I'd be able to hold a conversation. Oh, and remember what I said yesterday about Shane making fun of me when I tell him I took some Seroquel but not knowing the difference if I don't tell him... Well yesterday was one of the days I didn't tell him. And he kept asking if I was mad at him. Lol. So there's proof to my theory. And he doesn't know when to stop playing either. He'll keep messing with me and when I tell him to quit he'll stop for a second then keep going and wonder why I get irritated then ask why I'm mad... make since to you? Ugh, I'm just an all around crab this morning arn't I? Well, if you knew the stuff I've been worrying about recently you wouldn't be all that surprised. The fair is finally in town today... I wanna go. But I work today and tomorrow. So maybe Saturday. Friday is Pay Day! Speaking of which, I want a candy bar... (It's kinda kewl only working 2-3 days a week. It makes your pay day's come faster!)

I slept good last night. I woke up with no hesitation this morning... even tho I hit my snooze 3 times. But that's just so I don't wonder around the house for an extra 30 minutes. I already wonder around the house for 30 minutes when I get up at 1. I leave at 1:30 but it only takes me 3 minutes to throw on the uniform. Fuck make-up. That takes longer than getting dressed does. I had a girl in middle school refer to it as a fake face. She was a riot. Talking about how you're gunna get with some guy and have sex then your face will 'melt' and he's gunna wake up in the morning and start screaming then someone's gunna go after you with a gun and shit... all bc you had a fake face. Something like that. Her name was Laura something. I saw her in Bealls back when I worked there. Changed a lot. Still had her humorous side to her. That was obvious. Now it's bugging me. I don't remember her last name. She was an extreme tomboy in high school and now she dressed and acts like a normal human. Haha, just kidding. Dressed closer to a business woman now. A basic one anyways... okay. My need to describe something that I know for a fact can't be misinterpreted or not understood seems to make me look like an obsessive little thing on certain topics, doesn't it? Oh well. I recently had someone tell me that one of my talents could be a novelist... which considering I can't just say something without describing it in a way that I'm sure will be understood by my readers without using too many words or repeating myself like a raving lunatic would kinda make since, right? Hm... maybe. I need to work on spelling (without auto correction) and run on sentences.

2:48 and I'm starting page two. What wonders await on the mystical page two? No idea. Especially considering you're not seeing this in Word as I'm typing it. You're seeing it on my website which displays it as one long story. No pages, no nothing like that. And what's really annoying about pasting this into my website is that every time I hit enter and go down a line... when I paste it into the site. It sees it as Enterx4. So I got a lot of backspacing to do to get it to display right. And you think I just do this bc it's easy and to keep me entertained. Not bc I care. Shame on you... for understanding me too well. =P I said I slept well last night. And I did... I wasn't lying. But my eyes are getting heavy. It sucks. Is that normal? Lol. I'm gunna try my luck at DDR. Bbs.

4:02 Playing DDR (Stepmania), Mahjong and Freecell do kinda help pass the time. Lol. I really want to get a
Variety Puzzle book like mom and I used to do all the time. Those were kewl. I want a Quote Falls one tho. You can get them but you can't buy them in the store. At least not that I've seen. You have to actually order then from the back of the book. Lol. Sucks, but you know how it goes. Supply and Demand. If there is no demand, then there is none supplied. So Poopy on them! Lol. Just kidding... maybe. Idk. But yeah, 4:04... two minutes gone by. And I am beginning to realize how much typing doesn't really make the time go by... but I need to keep adding blogs to the site anyways, so I might as well make all this boring time useful, right? If only I had internet. To be honest if I had internet I'd probably be more bored than I already am. Don't ask how that works, just trust me. Anyways, I'm gunna try my luck at Minesweeper now. Bbs.

5:11 Minesweeper and DDR again. Then Ricky came in. He's going back to the dump now. First thing I had to do all morning. Push a couple buttons and pretend to be interested in his story about getting a new 5th tire. Lol. I'm just kidding. I like talking to the guys who come in here. The ones that actually talk to ya are fun to talk to. As opposed to the other ones that don't talk.. but then again, if they don't talk, how do you know they WOULDN'T be fun to talk to? Haha, as I typed that I could hear Larry the Cable Guy saying that. Idk why. But it seems like something that would pop up in his movie Witless Protection. And that girl was not hot, cute, nothing. Regardless of what anyone thinks. Lol. Larry's girl looked better than she did. What was her name? I like that one part when they were in the dinner “But I wanna get some!... Sooooome help cleaning my garage.” Lol. And what was the name of his possum? Willy or something? Idk 5:18... I've only been here for 3 hours. Ugh. 5 more hours to go. I meant to leave Shane my work number, but I didn't feel like hunting it up. So I never did. Oh, and I caught the train this morning. Which sucked. But it was a short train so I wasn't waiting too long. It's better than catching a deer... with the front of my car. Like I almost did two times in a five minute period last week on my way to work. Ugh, it's 5:22. There should be people coming in now. A few supervisors and some employees. But I haven't seen anyone yet. Blah. Back to the games...

Games played:23. Games Won:3. Sad isn't it? Lol. That goes to show you what I DON'T usually do in my free time. Anyways, it's 6:07 now... okay, 6:08. Even the clock has to prove me wrong. Not kewl. Blah. Four more hours... come on!!! It's coming. The hard part is over with. One you get passed 5am, you're doin good. I want cheetos! Gr... I have money to get them from the vending machiney thing, but I don't need them. Especially this early. I didn't bring a sandwich today bc we ran out of bread. And that's usually my 8:30 thing. A sandwich. So yeah. Maybe it will be Cheetos... we'll see. You know what else sucks? I get paid tomorrow, and that's good bc I work tomorrow so I don't have to make a special trip up here. But you know what sucks? I get off at 10. the mail usually gets here at 11. So yeah. I'm gunna have to make a special trip up here anyways. Sucks! And I ain't stayin til 11. Maybe I'll just see if Jennifer can bring it home when she gets off and I can just run and get it from her. She lives next to me =) ... kinda. Ooo. Another truck. Brb.

6:19... 6:22... had another truck. Lol. Only he was leaving. This job is easy. The complicated part is trying to figure out who I need to call with random situations that come up bc there are like... 20,000 different people that they tell me to call and I never can remember who it is I need to call for certain situations, or situations that come up and I'm not prepared for... like this morning I had a phone call from shipping. They needed someone to take something down... why call me? Well I called Tim, the guy who introduced himself to me earlier... which was good, bc I had a name for at least ONE person working this morning. So I called him and it turns out he was near the mechanics, who are the people who handle whatever it was those people in shipping needed. So yeah. And the fact that some guys don't carry radios and they arn't always in their office... it's a mess trying to track people down sometimes.

Mr-Cardinal-Tim-Evans-Know-It-All-Man should be here soon. But I think he mentioned to me that he doesn't work Thursday's bc that's usually our inventory day. Man, I guess everyone thinks it is inventory day today. Johnson is running late, and McClarry is running late. Two calls back to back. So yeah... Thrower will be thrilled, I'm sure. Lol. Idk. I really have no idea who most of the supervisors are unless I see them in or next to their car. That's how I know them.. their cars. Ooooh. Jeep. I want it!!! Idk whose Jeep that is, but i'm gunna steal it today. Lol. I'm just kidding... don't take me serious. I wouldn't know the first think on car jacking. I'm sure it's not as simple as it seems in the movies. But I'm definitely getting me a jeep when I pay my car off. I want one bad. Lol. Damn... these people WANT to get ran over by a truck Lol. Just bc they work here doesn't mean they have special truck non-running over privileges or something. Blah. 6:43. Jim, the JEO man just came in. He's kewl. One of the fun to talk with talkers. As opposed to the not fun to talk with non talkers. I can't see my little blinking curser thing. So I never know where the text is going to come in at. And I don't like that bc I keep hitting the keypad and it jumps my cursor thing to somewhere else in the document and I start typing and it's hard to tell what to back up and where it went if it isn't blinking... it sucks. Lol. Anyhow, I'm gunna call it quits for now. Me and my non blinking cursor are taking a break. See ya!

Todays Uneventful Events

At work again. It's 2am. 2:15 to be exact. I brought Shane's laptop with me today. I just wanted something new I guess. Idk. Plus I don't have StepMania on mine. Lol. Or Google Sketchup, which is another interesting program I'm working on learning. It's kinda kewl. You should google it and check it out. It's a trial thing, but it's kewl if you like to build and edit and what not. I feel the drowsiness kicking in a little bit already. I brought a sandwich, a bag of cereal, and some icing with me... and my tea. So hopefully between all that I should be good when it comes to giving myself energy when I start to feel myself lacking.

I did manage to forget to grab my external hard drive... which sucks. Bc I don't have my music on this computer. I have it on all the other computers tho. Go figure. This comp is great for graphics and is an all around really good quality computer outside and inside... I just wish it had a larger hard drive. Which is why I haven't put the music on this one. I figure why put music on this when I can just play it off the external (I don't have). Words in parenthesis can (not) be ignored. One good thing about this one is that it isn't missing a delete key like mine. Lol. My bird ran off (flew off) with it and I never found it. And that was at the old place... we're in the new place now. So I'm sure there's really no hope in finding it. Maybe I should just go to Bestbuy and steal one off theirs. Lol. Wouldn't that be interesting for my signature mark to be a missing delete key. Like, what if something happened (this is highly hypothetical btw!!! Don't get all stupid on me!) and I became some psychopathic serial killer and for every kill I'd steal their delete key as my signature mark. Lol. But yeah, it's a nice comp. It's got some AMD 64bit Athlon X2 processor and NVIDIA graphics card that Shane keeps raving about. That's a mouthful to actually SAY btw. Lol. What I do like about this one tho is I can turn off the keypad. Which is great bc I always tend to hit it when I'm typing. Go me!

My cell finally got cut off yesterday. It was suppose to be cut off a month ago. Bc the contract ran out and Dad got a new plan and since I'm in SC and all, we we're gunna renew it. Just get our own. So yeah. And I really haven't been using it all that much since I left FL anyways. So it's not that big a deal to me. But Shane's always freaking out thinking I'm gunna get stranded on forty-two by myself without a cellphone and not be able to do anything but get out and walk, which he doesn't want me to do. So yeah. Mr-Sweetly-Overprotective-Boyfriend wants to get another one soon.. but we got to wait for a steady income. These people are suppose to be taking money out of my check to pay for my SLED ID which I still haven't received and my drug test and something else. I don't remember what it all was. But yeah. They are splitting it up and taking it out of three checks. Only they haven't done it yet... So I have no idea what my checks are going to be like when they actually start taking money out of them bc they haven't started yet. And that's not kewl. I wish they would have just taken it out of the initial three checks... but No. Ugh. See, if they did that, then this check I get Friday would have been the last check they take anything out of. But bc they didn't, as of right now, I still owe them money... and that sucks. I don't like having no way of knowing what my income is going to be like. I'm not used to that.

Anyways, there are only three people here this morning. And that's not including me. They are suppose to be opening back up tomorrow. The plant is closed right now. So by 5:30 I should be seeing some action around here. A little bit at least. The only one of the three that I know of that's here is Wayne and he's at the truck dump. Idk about the other two guys. And apparently there is a Warner truck back there sleeping... which they arn't suppose to sleep back there. They are suppose to pull off into the parking lot that's there special for them. Lol. Blah. Those flatbed people can sleep now. I've seen a guy there from before my shift, and he was still there after I left. Granted, that guy was where he was suppose to be. But when we get know it all people in here like Tim Evans, the Cardinal, driver he won't like that. Especially if he comes in after sitting in the parking lot for 30 minutes waiting for 7:00 to come around for shipping to open, then come to find out that he's NOT the first truck back there... He's gunna be like WTF! Lol. But he needs to have that response every once in a while. I mean don't get me wrong, I'm sure he's a good guy. A nice guy. But I really wish he'd get over that “I've been doing this for years, I know it all” attitude. It's kind of annoying. I wonder if he has a wife. And if so, how'd he manage to not chase her away with that kind of attitude? The Eighth Wonder Of The World.

2:49. I hit snooze on my alarm clock 3 times before waking up... I think. 12:30, 12:40, and 12:50. Yeah. Three times. Lol. I only took one Seroquel last night. Shane insists that I took more. If I told him that I took one he's all like, “You're so messed up. I see it in your eyes” and stuff like that. Laughing at me. But if I tell him I didn't take one... he doesn't say a Damn thing. So what's that say? I really wish he'd get over that. Even tho I know he's joking around I hate when he laughs at me like that. I can't justify anything bc he'll interupt me and give his opinion and leave me no room for mine. And I can't just make him shut up... which is all I want him to do in the first place bc I'm too tired to care, let alone argue a point he's not going to listen to.

Well its 2:57. Almost an hour gone... 7 more to go. I'm gunna go play StepMania for a few and see if that can keep me up for a little while. I'm starting to lose it. Well back to this again. It's 3:36. I guess that game did help me a little bit. It did make me tired... but only my hands. Lol. I keep finding myself wanting to lay my head down and rest but I don't want to. I'm a little over an hour and a half into my shift and I'm really not feeling all that bad... with the exception of my stomach feeling like it's usual achy self. Idk. I'm gunna go drown myself in a pool at creativity and try my luck at photoshop at 3am. Lol.

4:15. Done photoshopping. Made a desktop background for Jon that he will most likely never see. So yeah. Lol. I wanna sleep... it sucks. And if this chair would sit back instead of lean forward that would help a LOT with staying up. With it leaning forward it's telling me to lay my head on the desk and take a nap. The one thing I don't want to do. And OMG my stomach feels like shit. I'm getting tired of this. I remember the first day it started hurting. Omg. That was a cramp from hell. It was a really sharp pain in my stomach like I was gunna start but 20 times worse. I don't feel like that anymore tho. Just that one day. Now it just hurts enough to make me uncomfortable. Which pain and I usually get along pretty well until it decides to take steroids. I've had doctors tell me that I've got an unusually high pain tolerance.. and I guess that's a good thing. But at the same time, one of those times I went to the doctor I had a really bad headache and I just began to feel it. Idk what made Mom take me up there, maybe my head was hot. But the doctor was shocked that I wasn't feeling anything near what I should have been feeling. So yeah. That's the uh... Kris vs Pain theory.

4:32. There are more things I'd like to write on here. But it's not appropriate. I mean, it's not bad, but it's nothing I'd want to broadcast across the net, and seeing as there is no way to make a single post private with the website that I'm using, I can't really write out what I want to. It's just something Shane did last night when I was getting to bed. He was messing around. I know that. But with the things I've been hearing lately about different people, it kinda makes me look at things differently. So even tho he was playing when he did what he did, I had a more serious outlook on it. He's done it before, and we've laughed about it. I laughed about it last night, but it was only me hiding what was really going through my mind. I never seen it the way my mind saw it last night. It was just different. Completely innocent. I know that. It's just me and my mind. Idk why I've been seeing things differently lately. I've been taking everything too serious. Pushing things over the limit in a way. Making a bigger deal out of things I usually let go. Maybe it's just bc I'm tired of the childish bullshit. Or maybe it's bc of something else. Shane's mature and responsible for his age, but he still doesn't understand an adults maturity. Don't get me wrong. He's far more mature than he should be. But there are still something he needs to get over. He plays too much. Doesn't know when to be serious. And thinks it's funny to irritate the hell out of me and then wonder why the Fuck I get pissed off about it. “I was only joking.” Even tho I TELL him MULITPLE times that he's irritating me and he's going to push it into something bigger. I mean I WARN him. I ask him to quit. I tell him I'm irritable and that I'm going to blow up if he doesn't quit, but he keeps on going. Then starts raising his voice on goes on his rant about how I treat him like shit and how he does so much for me. When it all could bee avoided if he would have just listened to me in the first place when I told him that I was irritated and I was trying not to be and that he wasn't helping. He gets a laugh out of it I guess. He says it's his way of cheering me up. Piss me off to no end, Let me blow up, Get us into an argument, Then makeup... why not just leave me alone in the first place? That makes since, right? That's the immaturity I'm talking about. Him not being wrong... until all is said and done. Then he goes into his “I'm sorry, I've just got so much on me right now” speech. Which he does. I can't say anything about that. He does good for himself. He does good for US and I Love Him to death, regardless of all his issues. Lord knows I've got enough of my own.

To be completely honest, I think Shane and I are complete opposites. I mean, what I lack, he has. And what he lacks, I have. It's like a square with little pieces missing along the edges for what he lacks. And Likewise for me. So we fit together like a puzzle when we bring the two pieces together. Make since. We've got completely different background and friends, yet we love each others friends and our backgrounds... well. The way we grew up was the same to a point. His was just intensified times 20k. So we have a understanding about things that other people can't really relate to. Even when we're laying in bed and looking through websites at some neat background images, it's always the same image that catches our eye. And music, we have the same taste. Only Shane doesn't like rap. He likes Eminem, but he doesn't like... well I won't tell you what he calls it bc I don't agree with the title. But he doesn't like R&B and Hip-hop and most Rap. I'll just say that. But I do like it... so he can kiss my Big, Fat, White Ass. Lol. I listen to everything. Just don't stick me around Opera. I'd rather be here working at 2am than sit through THAT for an hour. I lean more towards the neutral sounding songs. Like Alanis Morissette and 3 Doors Down, Jewel, Third Eye Blind... Notice it's the late ninety's era. Lol. Mainly anyways.

Anyhow. It's 4:59 now. I made it through 3 hours of work... now I've got to survive the other 5 hours I've got ahead of me. I just heard a trucker on the radio. No idea what he said, but I know he was there. He scared the shit out of me. Almost sounded like Jim actually. The JEO guy.

Shane's Dumbass has all my jackets at work. Apparently he wears 2 pairs of socks, 2 pants, 4 shirts, 2 jackets and a beanie when he goes to work in the morning... and he strips as the day goes on and gets hotter and Genius leaves the clothes at work. So not only do I have no jacket when it comes time for me to work but when I DO actually get the clothes back I'll get an ass-load of them at the same time, all of which need to be washed. Even tho I repeatedly ask him NOT TO WEAR MY FUCKING JACKETS TO WORK. Bc he always gets shit on them (that won't come off). So I'm stuck wearing one of his old beat up jackets, which is warm btw, but it can't zip up and the sleeves are short enough for a 9 year old. So here I am. Miss Florida, is 30 degree weather (in the beginning of winter) used to nothing below 43, in one extra small jacket. Yay!... I know, I've been kinda doggin on Shane in this blog, but I just wish he'd actually LISTEN when I say something. And not just that. Honor it! It'd be nice, ya know. But I still Love em'... can't help it. =P 5:17

Stepmania again. BBS. 6:04. So I got a few trucks in that interrupted my game and then Robert Johnson came in and was talkin to me for a little bit. Asked me to add him on Myspace. His music page. He does jazz. So I got to remember to do that. If you are reading this... remind me of that. Bc I'll forget. Lol. You can tell the plant is open today. You actually got some supervisors coming in now. The flatbed that was out there is finally out. She's got a problem tho. She's low on coolant in her truck and is saying her truck is going to cut off and there is no one here to help her with the situation sooo... yeah. She's over there taking up space in the parking lot now. Lol. She really doesn't look like she'd be a truck driver. Seems like a nice lady. She's black and has long dreadlocks. She looks like she'd be a nun or something the way she stands there politely waiting on you with her hands behind her back peacefully looking out the window. Lol don't ask. I read too much. Ah, 6:21. Three and a half more hours to go. 6:30... it seems like more time has gone by than that. 6:57. Looks like it's about that time. Time for me to start putting up the shit that keeps me awake and busy. Lol. So off I go!!! Lol Just kidding. Later Peoples.

This is actually not a work post...

Hey hey hey... Fat Albert. Lol. I R @ Wits end. Okay, not really. But I am on Shane's laptop and OMG it's hard for me to type on this thing. The keyboard is so large compared to mine. I'm not used to it. That and my nails keep getting in the way... on my left hand anyways... and my right hand can't seem to find the 'h.' Bhal... ok. And now I'm dyslectic too. (And I totally didn't know how to spell that btw. I googled it. Lol.) Anyhow, I'm just doing this to give you guys an update.. well an anonymous update really. Got some stuff going on unofficially... so far. And yeah. That's kinda where my mind has been at the past few days. (this keyboard is really annoying.) That, and I'm really tired... but I got to work in the morning. Three days in a row this time. Not just two. so hopefully by day 3 I'll be able to correctly function at 2am. lol. At least I hope I'll be used to it after 3 days in a row. If not then day three will be hell. But yeah. After than i don't go back to work until November 6th. And I also got a dentist apt that day at 2:30. So I'll be nice and tired for that one.

Okay, and Idk what's going on with my bird but he was sitting there with his foot to the side of his head and it sounded like he was trying to mimic talking of some sort. Like he was using a telephone. lol. But I was messing with him earlier and I went to pick him up, but instead of him stepping up on my finger, he lowered his head. He wanted me to scratch his neck. Lol. And he don't like to be touched on his back but he let me pet him all the way down his back. So my little temperamental birdie is making progress. He says 'pretty bird' now. I don't remember if I mentioned that to you guys or not. But if you own a bird then you know how it's kinda exciting when they do something new. Kinda like it's exciting for a child to do something new. Only a little less extreme. Lol. Anyways Shane's home now. So I'll write more later.

Okay, well he WAS home. For like... 30 seconds. He sat down on the couch, a horn honked, and he jumped up, ran outside, hopped in, and off he went. There was no... I Love you baby, I'll be back, I'm helping Russel, nothing. Just ran out.. and left me standing there like WTF. That kinda hurt to be honest with you. But I guess that's just a girl thing. Who knows. You get used to routine then think too much when the routine skips a beat. I didn't even get a hug =(

It's 2:30... I gotta go to bed in 2 hours and 30 minutes if I'm gunna be awake for work in the am. i get up at 12:30. I wish I would be relieving someone other than Fletcher tho. Not only do I have to fabreeze the hell out of the place after he leaves, but I hate how he just watches me. It's creepy. I know he means no harm and there's nothing to be worried about and all that, but I just don't like to be watched. Man, I'm so sick and tired of feeling sick and tired. It sucks. I'm kinda disappointed bc my bird ate the hell out of my favorite shirt and I WANT MY BOYFRIEND BACK. I look foward to him coming home all day long, then he finally gets here and I'm happy and he just runs out and leaves me hangin. That's not fair. I know Russel has been kinda distant towards everyone and Shane has been more than willing to help him even tho Russel keeps saying no. So now that Russel does accept the help, I understand him jumping on it. I mean Russel does a lot for us. He deserves it. But I don't think it's kewl how Shane just ran out on me like that. Makes me kinda feel like shit... like I don't feel like shit enough. I'm not mad at him or anything, and me typing so much about it probably makes me seem like some controlling Bitch, but I'm just explaining how I feel about it. I'm not mad. I understand and it's not like he does it all the time. I mean he's never done it before. I was just kinda dumbfounded when he ran out like that. Anyhow, new topic.

I'm tired as HELL. And I need to go take a shower before I go to sleep. But right now I'm tired and I don't feel like it. Bc once I get in there the heat is going to make me even more tired and weak, and I still have to cook dinner. I take really hot showers. Lol. So it REAALLY drains the energy out of me. I can't really thing of anything else meaningful to type, so I'm just gunna hop off of here. Later Peoples.

Just another day at work

Well here I am. Back to blogging at 2am. That exciting feat that starts my day off on the right foot... by not falling asleep at work. That's one hell of a goal isn't it? Well let me tell you this. It's one of those “easier said than done” kinda things. Let me recap on this mornings events...

Woke up- 1:29am
(Suppose to leave the house-1:30am)
Running around getting dressed, finished-1:32am
Making a sandwich for work and a half for breakfast, finished-1:36am
Found giant roach on the ceiling-1:37am
Attacked him with Raid (after I searched for it)-1:38am
Packed up laptop-1:39am
Gave Shane a kiss before I left-1:40am
Had to go back to find my jacket-1:41am
Poured drink, Kissed bird, Got stuff and finally left-1:42am
Realized (after I'm at the end of the road) I left my cell, Oh well-1:43am
Almost hit deer #1-1:45am (yes, deer #1... because....)
Almost hit deer #2-1:47am
Panicking-1:50am
Arrived to work-1:57am

Lovely. So I was almost late to work, almost wrecked twice. Succeeded in forgetting my cellphone and I'm STILL tired! Sucks, don't it? I should have grabbed that icing this morning. Ooo a truck. Brb. Okay, but yeah. I should have grabbed some icing to try and liven me up a bit... too bad I didn't. I thought about it but I was pressed for time, as you now know. This Swish program I'm trying to learn is still kicking my ass. I still managed to have both items dragging instead of just one item dragging. They are acting like it is one item... but it's not. I'm so lost. Lol. Not that you're going to understand any of this, but you know how it is.

Omg, my eyes are still heavy from that Seroquel. Sucks. I finally find something that will put me to sleep, only it sucks bc when I wake up, it's still working... I know. I'm never satisfied. But I can't help it! YOU try going to sleep in the middle of the day! It's still light outside, your boyfriend is across the street fishing, your bird is just chirping away, the ducks are all gathered in your front yard yapping at each other while they're chillin out in the shade... that's a good days material right there. Why would you want to sleep through that? I'd want to be out there In the daylight fishing WITH they boyfriend, FEEDING the ducks and most likely Slapping the bird... Oh, which reminds me. I got my bird to say “pretty bird.” I find it exciting. Don't ask. I take pride in stuff like that. Like if I hit my nail on the table top and few times, the bird will do the same only with his beak. He'll do that to get my attention too. Hit his beak on the wall or cage, or whatever is closest to him. He was doing that Monday and I got up at 8:30 thinking someone was knocking on the door. Lol. Then I curled up on the couch and slept til 12:35... I didn't mean to. I was tired... like now. Now I need a pill to counter act the Seroquel and wake me up... that'd be nice. I want to sleep so bad. And it hasn't even been an hour yet. 2:49am. Truck left... 2:53. I'm gunna try and rest... I just really hope I don't fall asleep... We'll see.

Well I fell asleep off and on. But I think I'm good now. Terry came in here and talked with me for a little while. So that was kewl. I feel better now that I had a reason to stay up. I'm awake! Woo! I think those little naps helped me a lot too. Not only that, I've got a little source of entertainment coming over the truckers radio. Check it out. Haha.

These were actually said, I'm bored. That's why I'm typing them...
“I really need to talk to Tumbleweed, I got back my test results. “
“Tumbleweed tossed my salad. “
“Thats what they call ass to mouth today. “
“Tumbleweed kissed each other in the shower pool. “
“I am heterosexually challenged. “
“MilkyLicker, is anyone going to fire island tonight. “
“She was not a very good time. (Rice Salomi?) if you know what I mean. “
“The truck drivers getting each other off for (something) hole. “
“Don't give a candy bar to the first person who can spell racecar backwards. “
“This is MilkyLicker. I challenge you, please spell racecar backwards, it will make me very happy. “
“(something) I'm following you. “
“Yes, it's very powerful, I got it on ebay. “
“It's got magical powers. “
“Have you been drinking sir? “
“My name is not Res, it's MilkyLicker... you bastard. “
“Can I play (something) sexy topic. What is everyone dressing as for Halloween?”
“Im dressing up as a trucker with a little zippy vest and a strap on. “
“And nuthugger jeans. “
“ATTN Ladies and gentleman. This is MilkyLicker. Hello.”
“I can talk all I want you piece of shit.”
“MilkyLickeerrrrrr!”
“You would go platinum if you recorded that song.”
“MilkyLicker, can anyone spell racecar backwards please. Come on.”

I think they got out of signal bc I haven't heard him for a while now. They said something about a red sun dress, but I didn't catch it bc I was talking to Terry. I'm sure there's a lot of this conversation that I missed. But that's alright. Wow, yeah. So my job has its entertainment. Just wish it would come at a better time. Lol.

I got another Dentist appointment Thursday. Just to check up and see how things are going. Making sure I'm not in any pain or anything. That should be a short visit. But we'll see. Right now I'm eating some Cheetos. I'm wanting to doze off again, that's why I grabbed those. I hate eating this early. But it keeps me up. Blah. And I hear people complaining about their Publix deli jobs, and their lifeguarding jobs, their retail jobs, their office jobs... try getting up at 12:30, when most of you are just getting to sleep, and putting on an itchy uniform that you have to wear for 8 hours straight (if not longer) while you deal with nasty, smelly truck drivers and annoying employees that come in and pour their philosophy of life onto your lap and you have no choice but to stop what you're doing and listen and politely nod your head and agree. If you go against them, they will only stay longer. Not only that, but what if you forget your lunch? You don't get a break here. Once you're here, you're stuck. You are the only one on duty until your relief comes in at the end of your shift. And even then they want to stand around and talk forever bc they know they have a long day ahead of them and want the first few minutes to go by faster... while you're standing in the door holding all your belongings that you brought to try and keep you busy, you're barely able to open the door bc of all the stuff, and they sit there and yap until they actually get a truck to occupy them. That's when you squeeze in your “Alright, well I'm outta here” and haul ass. Fun, ain't it?

Man, one of the philosophers just left outta here. Oh well, what can you do about it? You kinda like the company at first bc it's someone to talk to. But once they get thru the initial introduction and they see you're comfortable they'll pounce on you with whatever it is they want to push on you. And they ask you simple questions that seem like a basic part of conversation, but then they'll pull that information and use it on you. So sometimes it's better to be anti-social around here. Depending on who you're with.

I would've been pissed if I hit that damn deer this morning. Man, I keep thinking about that. I was doing 60 and it was just calmly walking across the street. I had to slam on breaks. Go deer! Now I know what Ron White was talking about in his joke. “You know why you can't catch a deer? The bullet is going too fast. Slow it down to about 30mph. Put a horn and headlights on it...” Lol. That's the first thing I thought of after the situation was over with. 3 hours and 30 more minutes to go. Well, 3 hours and 28 minutes to go. It's 6:32.

Another philosopher just left. But that was a short conversation. No philosophy involved this time around. Yes! Lol. Talking to the guys around here is kinda nice. I mean, you hear their stories and some of them are like.. Wow. Like this one little boy, he says things to other people and they realize what this boy is going thru. Like his mother is having sex with random guys while he's in the bed with them. And he's 4 years old. She drinks a lot of liquor and Budweiser and she has him out at like 3 in the morning sometimes. He had 27 bruises on his back. Some psychologist or something the boy went to asked him about it. And he said that “Momma beats me with a belt all the time. And she locks me in the closet and I sleep on the floor.” It's amazing the stuff people do. That little boy shouldn't be going through all that. Can you imagine what he'd think of his mother if he remembers that once he's older? Ugh, people are a mess, I swear.

Tim Evans, back again. The Cardinal driver. Ugh. 7am... Can I come it yet? I can't wait. Fortunately I've got 11 minutes before I've got to deal with him. He comes in with his head held high and his little blue tooth head set on. Telling ME to hold on while he finishes his conversation. Ugh. Then just yells in his oh-so-confident voice TRUCK! .. then his number. AND TRAILER .. and then That number. Then before I can ask, spits out his pick-up number and says he needs a hat bc he hasn't bought one yet. What's it going to take him to remember to buy one? Just wait til he gets lice from wearing those hats that other people have been wearing. He'll come in scratching his head. He already comes in and gets dressed... I'm serious. He will sit right there behind the counter and put some pants on. And then when he leaves, he takes them back off. Like he can't put them on while he's waiting in his truck for 30 minutes until 7 o clock comes around. It just adds to his “confidence” I guess. Who knows. 6:59. He's gunna be calling soon. And I've got to get off here now bc it's about that time.. but I think I'm gunna push it a little more. Lol. It's still dark and still slow. And there he is calling me... 7:01. Doesn't even ask for a hat. Just says HAT! Lol ass. That and he basically lays on top of the counter to grab the other book bc that's the one he signs instead of just waiting for me to give it to him. AssHOLE. Lol. Anyways, It's 7:14 and things are starting to pick up, so off I go. See ya!

Feeling like shit at work is bad enough... let alone at 2am

Back at work again. This time it's really cold and I'm still really tired. I got to bed a little late last night... well, not late in your terms, but late considering I'm up at 12:30am getting ready for this thing people like to call a job. I took 3 pills last night to put my ass to sleep. Two Seroquel and one Lortab. Ugh. I'm not the biggest fan of taking pills,especially for sleeping, but it seems the first night of a 2am work call... that's the only way to get yourself on track initially for the following days. I took them at 7:30 and by 8:15 I was slurring my words like crazy and Shane took me to bed. Can't say I didn't need it. I was trying so hard to not sound or look like those things were taking an effect on me but once I started to speak I realized it was going to be harder than I thought so I gave up on trying. Even if I was able to actually pronounce the words right without slurring them, I was really slow and my voice kinda trailed off at the end. It was sad. Anyhow, I'm gunna go work on my hopefully soon-to-be screensaver. I'll jump back on here to give you a heads up later.

It's 3:48am. I'm sitting here peacefully eating dry Lucky Charms. I say peacefully bc I usually have my bird sitting in my lap next to the bowl picking out all the marshmallows and eating them. Lol. But yeah... I just ran out of kool-aid. Good thing I brought some dollars with me... now let's see if I can use them without losing any quarters in this dumb machine. I need a Mt Dew high... REALLY bad. Let's try my luck. Brb. Well, I kept all my quarters, that's a plus. Now the question is how long will this Mt Dew last before I need another one? Aw man.. I lost a marshmallow in my shirt... but I found it :) Yummy. Anyways, my wannabe screensaver is coming along nicely. I just don't have the net right now to completely finish it. I need to grab some graphics bc I don't feel like making 20 hats, and 20 earrings and whatnot. The goal is to make a screensaver with peoples faces. You pick and face and then you can drag and drop items on the face like hats or eyes or something of that nature. So far so good. Everything is going well, can't complain. Haha. It's going a lot better than my first attempt at learning this program. But then again. I was going kinda out there for a first timer. It came out alright, I can't complain. I could, but I'm not.

Well, I almost had a gift for my brothers birthday on Sunday (their b-day is October 29th)... buuuuut. It didn't happen. They were closed by the time Shane and I got there. Suuuucckkkeeedddd!!!! REALLY Sucked. I was all excited too. I think they are going to like what we get them. I can't wait!!! Hehe. I wanted to get them a hamster... but mom won't let me. Says she has enough animals... what she fails to mentions is they're all birds... and they're all hers. She's got the biggest breeders. Lol. Those damn birds poop out so many babies it's unreal. And she can't find homes for them all. Ugh... I want some. Too bad I'm 300 miles away. Poopy. I do have a bird already tho. And I love my little birdie. It was born in April of 08. So keeping up with his age isnt hard. 4 of 08. And my birthday is 4-08 (of 87). Close enough, right?

Man, I got up this morning, drowsy as hell from those pills and tried eating some plain icing to wake my ass up... didn't work. Just made my kool-aid taste nasty. I was so used to tasting all the sugar from the icing, that when I took a sip of my kool-aid I didn't taste any sugar at all. Can we say gross? But yeah, I felt like I was going to get sick this morning, I really did. I wanted to call out so bad. But I figured I'd try to go into work. I need to. And I've felt fine so far so it looks like that was a good decision. It would've sucked to have called out for what ended up being no reason at all. And besides that, I'd have to call Toni at 12:30 in the morning and tell her I'm not coming in? I don't think so. And not only that, she'd have to get a hold of someone else to come in a cover my shift at such short notice... that's not fair. I figured the least I could do was try. (Hopefully my next paycheck will reward me for my attempt at doing right! (Yeah, right...)

Ugh, this program is kinda kicking my ass right now. I have two sets of eyes that I need to drag and drop. They both drag and drop fine, the problem is they both drag and drop together... I can't get them to do it separately. It sucks too bc I don't have internet out here so I can't go post something in a forum about it until I get off and get home. And even once I get off I've got to drive to Moncks Corner to pay our phone bill. THEN I can go home and try not to sleep... bc I got to be here again tomorrow morning and I want to be able to actually sleep without taking meds. The Seroquel kinda stops up my nose. Or closes my naval passage or whatever you wanna call it. Bc it's not like I get a runny nose or anything, just makes it feel like I'm breathing through a smaller hole than I'm used to. Anyhow. It's 5:56 right now and I want to see if I can figure out this problem on my own without assistance. I feel better when I can do that. Not that I'd get an answer in a forum anyways. I've posted two topics asking for help on two different things, but no one bothered to even respond. So yeah... Lol. Well I'm off for now. See ya.

Man, 6:23 and I've got the worst stomach ache. I just wanna through whatever is in there up, so I can feel better. I hate feeling like this. Blah. It sucks. Buuuut, only 3 and a half more hours to go. Wish me luck! Well by the time you read this I will be long gone, but you know how it goes. Oh where, oh where has my Hee-aaalth gone? Oh where, oh where can it be?... I need a more exciting job. You should see me right now. I look pitiful. As a matter of fact.. that's what built in webcams are for... Dur. Well, now I've got a dark, ugly picture to post for ya when I get around to posting this after I get home and fight the urge to fall asleep. Ugh.

Oh, we finally got a couch the other day. It's a used thing that we pulled out of a rental place. It was one that someone left behind. Nice couch but there's a little hole in the arm of the chair and I'm not a big fan of plaid, but you know how it is. Take what you can get. So it serves its purpose for now. I really wish I could get my stomach to stop hurting tho. That would be nice. Make it STOP!!! Oh yay... I've got the Carnival asshole coming in now. The one who likes to wait until 7 exactly then bug the hell out of me until he can come in. Yeah, him. Just what I need. And even clocking in for work this morning. I kept getting a busy signal, but when Fletcher dialed it, it worked... of course. So it was at that point I realized it was gunna be another one of those days. Another one I can't wait to end. OMG I'm about to freak. I can't stand my stomach right now. Well it's 3 til 7 now so I need to get off this thing. I'll catch you guys up again on the next blog. See ya.

Two new ones Raye! This one and yesterdays

Yet another 2am work call. Why is it all my blogs are posted when I'm at work? Lol. Anyways, it's 4:20 right now. I had Ricky and Rocky in here since I got here. So I had company. So far I think I've had 3 people tell me that I don't need to be here because of the stuff I do. Like drawing and photoshop and photography. Robert was in here the other day telling me he's gunna get me fired so I can get motivated to find a better job bc I don't need to be here. Lol. Everyone thinks I got talent... and idk. I guess I do, but at the same time, when you're the one doing all that stuff, you see so much room for improvement. So you don't see it as talent, especially when you've just always done it. It seems more like luck to you. Can anyone other than me relate to that? Lol.

Ugh. 4:25, one truck. 6 hours and 35 minutes more to go. And only 2 and a half until I need to get off this thing... depending on how busy it is. I might make it 3 and a half. Haha. I don't seem to have the same the same comedic personality as I had yesterday. Then again, I actually got my sleep last night. So I'd consider myself normal today. Lol I was beat yesterday. But I wouldn't let myself sleep until 5pm last night. That why I didn't accidentally take a REALLY long nap, and then wake up with the same problem again today bc I couldn't sleep when it came time to sleep. I went to bed at 5 and I was out. Like, a HARD sleep. Lol. Shane came in,unhooked the computer and brought it in the computer room, took a shower, and laid down with me for a while, but I didn't know about it at all. He left me a note on the bed. Lol. I woke up at 9:30 and went and sat in the computer room with him for an hour. Then we went to bed... bc for some reason I couldn't go back to sleep after I woke up. But as soon as Shane went back there with me it was easy. He was laying behind me with his arm around me pulling me close to him, and idk what it is about sleeping like that, but I love it. I can always fall asleep like that. We ended up switching sides and I was laying on his chest.. bc that's how I woke up. I kinda remember moving, but idk. Lol. In any case, that's where I was when I woke up, which means I didn't move... which means I was OUT. Haha. I was so irritated when my alarm went off. I kept hitting snooze until it was 1 o'clock. And I leave the house at 1:30... only lately I've been leaving at 1:20 and it sucks bc I hate that awkward silence when I'm sitting in here with Fletcher when I get here early. And I drive like... Super Slow to kill time. Lol.

4:40 now... Alanis Morissette-All I Really Want... that's what's on right now. Yesterday I was falling over at this time, so I think the whole sleep-thing went well last night. That's good. That was the goal anyhow. I'm sitting here looking around at something that I can do. Even if it's just filling out the date on e a piece of paper. It's something for me to do, right? But the one paper that I would put the date on that I didn't take care of yet... someone else did for me. Dumbass people. Haha, just kidding. That would be the “Roseburg Salary Employee Sign In and Out Log.” That's a mouth full isn't it? Basically anytime a supervisor comes in or out, I have to write down the time. The part that sucks is when they car pool... bc I don't know them by the faces. Chris Cagle is easy tho. Number one, isn't that the name of a country singer? And number two, he drives a Mustang GT. Which, a rich country singer driving a Mustang seems logical, doesn't it? Lol. Johnson is easy too... cause, how can you miss a Cruiser? I hate those cars. Got to admit tho, they are pretty kewl on the inside. Got a lot of room. But the outside, eh... not a fan. TRUCK!!! Be back!

That was Ricky... with Pollard trucking.. those trucks are huge, but you wouldn't think they're 76 thousand pounds huge. Lol. Well, loaded with shavings he is. Without it he's prob 23 or 24k. Still a lot. That's not something I would want to be under when it falls. Haha. Man, 4:54... I wanna shower. I never showered yesterday. Not that I did anything. Worked at 2am, sat around a did nothing in the AC the entire time. Got 9 pics developed, sat at the shop with Shane til 3 so I wouldn't fall asleep, went home sat on the computer til 5. THEN fell asleep. I almost nodded out about 4 times while on the computer. I was trying hard not to. Lol. I knew I'd regret it. Hell, if I DID shower I probably would have drowned myself. There wasn't no way I was gunna shower, if I was bathing, my ass was gunna be sitting in the tub. Haha. It was sooo nice when I was finally able to let it out. You have no idea. Haha. Well this is the end of page one... wait. This is size 12 font... okay, now it's 10... so I got a few more lines to go now. I'm a dork, I know.

3am by Matchbox 20. Good song. You thought 3am was the time at first didn't you. Wondering how it went backwards, weren't you? Lol. Something like that anyways. Of course someone is gunna be a smart ass and say I'm wrong. But I can't complain. If they be a smart ass about it I'll still feel good that someone is actually reading all this. O well. It's actually nice out this morning btw. I just have the window cracked. No AC. It's humid, that's about it. But that I can live with for now. I'm just gunna feel gross by the time I get home. But that's what the shower is for. I really need to get on top of the laundry. I've been slacking in that area. But then again, lately I've been at the rental place doing little odd and end things, then work. So yeah. Lol. (end of pg 1.)

(Beginning of pg 2. Lol) Anyways, yeah. Laundry is on the menu for today. Kinda... not the edible kinda menu, but you know how it goes. Tonights menu is gunna be hamburger helper. Honestly, it'll be the first time I cooked in 4 days... I think. 3 or 4 days. I haven't gone that long without cooking since I've been here. But that's how it is when you're busy. Lol. It was pizza, taco bell, pizza, then nothing last night... unless Shane cooked. And he probably didn't. He's usually not even hungry by the time he gets home. I'm not even hungry come dinner time. So sometimes I'll just cut up two potatoes and make a few fries. Then call it quits. Shane's happy with it. And when we're not hungry.. it stops us from changing our mind and getting hungry and cooking a full meal at 10pm that night. So, ya know. Lol. Eh... it's 5:08. Pollard came in at 4:49.. so he's gunna be coming out in about 15 minutes or so. Depends on how quick the guys are working back there. Lol... I can always tell when I missed a shower bc of the dirt under my nails. It's gross. I hate that. One of my pet peeves. I'll sit there and pick the dirt out from under Shane's nails sometimes too. But he kinda help but get his dirty with his job. Idk how it does it to be honest with you. If I has his job, I'd have it swept and clean like, everyday. Lol. I couldn't deal with the mess. And he'll take the screws out of a unit and just throw them somewhere, knowing he's got to put them back in.. I'd be worried I'd lose them so I'd put them somewhere “safe” and get them lost anyways. Haha. But my environment would definitely be cleaner than what it is with him. But maybe that's just a chic thing. Then again, growing up the house was always clean and what not. So dealing with a mess... just isn't acceptable to me. I can't stand it. Shane, on the other hand, was the opposite. Seems like all he had was a mess. (Pollard is out... 5:15.) He just doesn't mind it. Used to it. I can't stand that. Like is Ashtray-drawer... uck.

I feel my eyes getting heavy now. Just a little bit and it was the first time all morning. And it's past five! Woo! Not too bad. Haha. 5 more hours to go. Fuck. This STD thing sucks. I clicked it and it changed to EXT. So now when I hit the mouse arrow to moved backwards in the text, it doesn't move the cursor, it just highlights it all. And if I just click with the mouse, it does the same thing. And I can't click it and make it go back to STD. It's stuck. Told you my computer was sick. Lol. Oh yay. It's back on STD. I guess typing a few words made it go away. Huh. Weird. But now I can't make it go back to EXT when I click on it. Lol. Well, I looked it up and figured out some stuff about it... but I still don't know how to make it switch back to STD when I want it to. Lol. Not that it's important. Blah... stomach pain sucks.

Hm... it's not showing that there are any supervisors here.. but Cagle's car is here.. but the white company car isn't. Wonder if he had problems with his Stang? It's not parked in his normal parking spot. Who knows. I'm confizzled now. Haha. I'm assuming he took the company car home bc he had problems with his Stang. The company car sucks. It's a Taurus... I hate those things. Ever drove one? If you haven't, don't. You'd probably wreck it. If you don't wreck it on accident from all the blind spots, you'll wreck it on purpose bc you hate the blind spots. Lol. I'm not sure how the new one's are. The one they have here is the last model. But all the models other than the new one are full of blind spots. I'm not sure about the new one. They don't look as bubbly, that's a plus. Lol.

I'm starting to get tired now. Doing nothing with do that to ya I guess. Makes you lazy. This job wouldn't be so bad if I had something to do that allows me to be active. But we'll see. I think during the Holiday's it should be better. We'll have two guards on duty and we'll have to make rounds. It's gunna suck if I get stuck with Fletcher... ugh. I like working with Jennifer. Seems to be easy going and idk. Fun I guess and I'm comfortable. I seem to be uneasy around the others. Not for any reason in particular. I guess it's bc I knew her better too. That, and she's closer to my age.

Ugh. I'm just sitting here staring at this page and it's blinking cursor telling me to write more... but there's nothing to write. I mean seriously. What importance does this sentence have. If this sentence wasn't in this blog you wouldn't miss it, would you? Lol. No! (5:40)

Oh, and here is something for you to think about. Assume you got a letter that said this...
“Yes, everything's okay. 892=) look at the kb. See if you can figure it out!”

How would you translate that? I'm assuming 'kb' is short for keyboard. I tried typing 892 on a cell, but you don't get anything but 'twa.' Even if you count 8 letters on the top line of letters on the keyboard, then 9 on the second row, and so on... you get 'ilx' which is close to 'ily' (I love you) but not quite. Lol. Or you can get '*(@' with the symbols... but then I was thinking about it... if you take the symbols, and look and see what numbers you would have to press on the cell phone to get the given symbol and try it that way. So I checked, and the * = 6 and the ( = 1 and @ = 1. That's 611. Type those numbers on the cell phone and you get O:)... which is an angel. Now the only thing, I'm not sure if 611 is just how the symbols are on my cell, or if it's that way for all phones. So that's something to look into. Lol. But help me figure that one out. It's for a friend. They can't email freely bc the emails are read and they have to be careful. So help me translate this! Lol. And I'm not even sure if the symbols have anything to do with it... that's just me guessing. I was even thinking what it would be on a calculator. You know how you turn it upside down? Still don't help. Lol. But email me with some possibilities! It's an interesting little puzzle. I'm sitting here staring at my keyboard now trying to figure it out. Lol. You gotta help me so I don't lose my sanity. I don't have much left as it stands.

What about different ways of counting the keys on a cellphone. Like instead of the keys 8,9 and 2, try 9,2 and 4. I got that by counting just the keys that use letters. And count 8, which puts you at 9, then keep cycling, don't start over. So you'd start at 2, bc there is no letters on 1. And that puts you at 2. Then count 2 keys from #2, that puts you at 4. But that only gives you “Wah.” Lol. Even if you go up and down instead of in order. Like go 1,4,7 then back to the top 2,5,8. OR you could go 1,4,7 and work your way back up with 8,5,2. There are so many possibilities, but I don't think he would have made it that complicated. Lol. There's no telling. It's now 6:19... can I go home yet? Come on! Why is 10am so far away? Lol. Ugh, Jason should be coming back out soon... he went back there at 5:49. It's been 30 minutes... Yesterday his sawdust was moist do he had a hard time dumping his truck so there's no telling... and I was right. He came out at 6:21. Hah... I'm good. Maybe that means I've been here for too long and I need to leave now. Lol.

Shane was cute this morning. He was sleeping and I went and gave him a hug and a kiss before I left for work and then I went to leave and he was like “Baby...” is his sleepy scratchy voice and rolled on his back and kinda held out his arm to give me a hug stretching at the same time... lol. I thought it was cute. He gave me a kiss on my forehead and told me he loved me and off I went. Work again... Woo! Another truck. Idk who this is tho. Haha. Alrighty... man, I wanna go back to bed... not as bad as yesterday. But I guess there's just no being awake at 2am. Lol.

I need to get that Step Mania game on here again. That would give me something to do. Another truck! Ooo two. Okay, so I had three. Lol. But only two can go in. Other one is a flatbed and shipping isn't open until 7am. He's got 15 minutes to wait. But that's okay. Bc its Cardinal... which means it's asshole. I forgot his name. It's something like Wayne or idk. Can't remember. He'll come in like he's a pro and start spitting out information. Then demand a hat. It was funny yesterday bc he had to walk his know-it-all ass all the way back up to the guardhouse to get a hat bc he forgot it. He seemed humble when he had to do that. Showed everyone that he isn't perfect. It knocked that attitude of his shoulders. He has a face like Buzz Lightgear or the pest control man from “Over The Hedge.” He reminds me of Buzz tho bc he's so sure of everything he does. It's kinda funny in that aspect. But yeah, long story short, he's a know it all. I'm sure he's smart, he kinda gives me that kinda vib, but that don't mean he owns the damn place. And he'll call me on the CB radio at 7 exactly to ask if he can come in. Impatient ass. Annoying as hell. I think his name was Wade actually. We'll see when he comes in. He's got 8 minutes until 7.

There are some guys standing outside talking before they got to go in. I should open the door and yell “No Loitering!!!” Lol. Nah, let them talk. There ain't no harm in it. They got some good guys who work here. Well, the good ones are the ones that tend to talk to ya. The other ones just keep to themselves I guess. Who knows. As long as I get to deal with the good ones, I'm okay. Lol. 4 more minutes til he gets to bug me... ugh. Last time he made me call the guys and see if they would take him in. They were in some sort of safety meeting but told me to send him in anyways. I'd make him sit out there. It's only 6:57 and he's already inching forwards. Lol. And he didn't even call me. He just came right on in at 7:00 on the dot. Not a minute after. Lol. But it looks like I was wrong about the name. It begins with a T according to how he signed the book. Anyhow, I gotta get rid of this thing. It's 7:11 and this should have been put up around 6. But it was slow enough. But you know how it goes. It's all good. I only got 3 more hours to go. Less than three hours actually.

Apparently there is a pretty bad wreck on one of the main roads. Couple car pile up by a school. It's blocking some of the trucks from getting here. They can't get around it. I bet it sucks to be one of the cars behind the truck can COULD get through if it wasn't for the truck. Lol. I bet some of those truckers feel bad about that too, but there's nothing they can do about it. Anyways, 7:19 now. I need to her off here. And this next line will be starting page 4... lol. Alright. Well I'm out. See ya later Peoples!!

Yet another 2am work call

Hey hey. Me again. It's been a while since I posted a blog on here, so here it goes again... Lol. Right now I'm at work. It's 2:10am... don't complain to me about your job. Eh, it ain't all that bad really. I mean, I'm sitting here on my laptop listening to iTunes... I could be texting someone, but there's no one to text at 2am. So you can nix that idea. It's just the hours suck and there are times... like now, that there's nothing to do. Like right now the plant is down til Wednesday so there is no action going on. No one is here. AT ALL... okay I take that back. Two people are here. Ricky and Rocky. And it must suck to be them. They're here just in case a truck comes. Fletcher, the guy that just left when I got here, he only had 2 trucks on his entire 8 hour shift. That's a whole lot of nothing to do if you ask me. With the plant being down, there is really no point in being here. But ya know how it is. That's one thing about this job, there ALWAYS has to be someone here. As far as security goes. So the hours kinda HAVE to suck. Lol. Oh well. It's kinda nice getting off work at 10am and still having the entire day in front of you, not just half a day of a couple hours. The entire day. It's awesome. When I'm not working I don't get out of bed til.. idk. 11am sometimes. Lately anyways. And that's got to stop. I can't keep doing that. Lol. I feel like crap when I sleep in all day like that. And my day is so much shorter. Sucks.

Anyways, when I got up this morning... well, let's back track. Last night when I was trying to sleep (and failed miserably) I didn't take Shane's Seroquel like I usually do when I got to be at work at 2am. So I went to bed at 5pm... but that didn't mean a damn thing. Lol. I sat there with my wireless keyboard and mouse and messed around on the desktop while I was in bed. Then Shane came in there at 6:30 and was playing Daddy. He turned of the TV, I mean monitor (that thing is HUGE. Might as well be a TV) and made me try and sleep. He sat there and ran his hands through my hair for a while and kept me company for a little bit til I looked tired enough to sleep. Then he'd try and leave. I was whining. Lol. I was bugging him to lay down with me for a little bit. And he kept saying no. And at one point I was whining and I said “Shaaaane” and my voice kinda cracked so it sounded like a little kid and he was like “Aw, don't do that.” Lol. But he did sit on the edge of the bed for a little bit and play with my hair and it felt really good. Haha. I had my arm around him, and I grabbed one of his belt loops on his pants, so when he got up to leave he couldn't go anywhere. So then he knelt beside the bed and kept playing with my hair and my face and kept running his hands over my eyes trying to get me to keep them closed. Eventually they stayed closed... but I knew better, bc soon after that he left. Asshole. Hehe. But he's an Adorable Asshole. So I can't complain too much. Haha.

Later on that night I was still awake... obviously. Why would I say “later on that night...” if I was sleeping. That'd be a stupid story line. “Once upon a time... I was asleep. The End.” Can we say Boring?! Anywho... Lol. Shane promised me before he left that he'd go back there and lay down with me and he'd be back there by 11. I was tossing and turning... I tried REALLY hard to sleep. Here's a question... How can you try REALLY hard to sleep? Do nothing, say nothing, think nothing, be nothing. Those are about you're only options... it sucks. Lol. Anyways... at 10:30 I finally got up and asked him when he was coming to bed. And he's like... what are you doing up?! (I thought he was going to be mad at me. Haha.) I told him I couldn't sleep and he gets all sweet again (I Love when he does that) and hugs me and gives me a kiss. He's like, you couldn't sleep without me... that's so cute. Lol. It's amazing what you can get used to. As soon as he went back there and laid down with me, I was out in 10 minutes flat. By that time I was only getting 2 hours and 15 minutes of sleep before I had to get up at 12:30. And I would have slept that entire 2 hours and 30 minutes if he didn't say, “Baby.... uhm, you're gunna hate me. I gotta go pee.” Lol. And I was laying on his chest and was all comfortable and warm (the house was 55 degrees. Don't ask). But I told him to hold it. Lol. I told him he was gunna be all cold when he gets back... He's like, I'll run. Lol. So I got closer to 2 hours sleep. Haha.

2:34!! TEXT!!!! (If you don't know, don't ask.)

I kinda like doing this thing at work. I type it up in Word and paste it in the site when I get home... bc I don't have wireless here. Anyhow... I got up this morning at 12:30 and I knew I had a long day in front of me... Bc I'm gunna wanna go to sleep come about 4am. And Devin isn't here to keep me company this morning... which means this might be a long blog. Haha. Anyhow, I was prepping myself for the morning. Drinking lots of tea hoping for a caffeine high or something. Tea has caffeine, right? If not, it has sugar... which is something else I drank a lot of... Kool-aid. I took a corner of one of the left over pizzas from last night that had a giant Jalapeño on it. All it did for me was allow me to taste the damn thing every time I burped from drinking all the left over Mt Dew while on the search for more caffeine. Lol. Then I remembered we still had some cake from Shane's Birthday... so I cut me a slice of that took two bites and threw it away. I couldn't do it. I tried. Waaay to sweet for 1am food. Lol. So that has been my intake so far this morning. (Healthy isn't it?) I took the remaining three pieces of pizza with me to work in case I need another sugar boost (and idk why I keep wanting to spell sugar like this... surgar. Lol) and a giant glass of tea. And in case that wasn't enough I stole the one dollar bills that Shane left in his pocket from the pizza last night to use in the vending machine in case I need a MT Dew pick-me-up or a Reese rush. Lol. So I'll know how all this prepping turned out around 5am. Bc that's when I start to go “FUUUCCCCKKKK!!!! I WAAANNA FUCKING SLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP!!!” So like I said, we'll see. (If you knew how many times I had to correct the “we'll” I just typed, you'd already be worried. Fuck typos.)

So that puts you up to date. Well, up to second really. So now I'm out of shit to say. Woo. That's a great feeling. Good thing this is a virtual conversation. Otherwise I'd classify this as an awkward silence. When you're on a messenger you can just be like... phone rang, had to use the bathroom, laundry, fed the dog... even tho your phone's disconnected, you have been dehydrated for the past week, your clothes are already clean, and your dog died a month ago... but it works. iTunes just started the song “Hot N Cold” by Katy Perry. Idk why but I seem to have the oddest addiction to her songs. It's something in her voice. It's a low pitch but when she sings, she doesn't hold back or alter her voice. It's like she's talking... but singing. Which is how it is will what I would classify as a good singer. Like Mariah Carey, which isn't a bad singer btw, but in her songs when she has that high pitch squealy thing that is completely unnecessary bc it makes me not wanna listen to it bc there is no way I can make that sound unless I'm being chased by a drunk guy in purple polka dotted thong holding a knife in the air singing “The Bad Touch” by Bloodhound Gang... don't ask. Anyways, Mariah Carey's squeal is the definition of not talking/singing. She's altering her voice. Which I understand you do when you sing.. but she does it on an entirely different level. But then again I guess that's why I like R&B bc they talk with a beat. Same concept. Long story short... I like Katy Perry's songs for a complicated and almost unexplainable reason. Lol. (And this dumb fly won't stay off my gigantic Cup-O-tea.)

I really wish I was able to go to school right now. This would be the perfect job for me bc instead of doing nothing or writing this really long meaningless and hopefully funny blog, I could be doing something productive, like homework. I guess I could probably be doing someone else's homework... Lol. But it's just not the same. Ugh, I've only been here an hour and I'm already starring at the screen like... What now? Can I sleep? Can I kill something? The fly would be the first on that list... and second will be the telemarketer who calls and wakes me up once I go home and try to sleep. I hate those dumb foreign people who call you with their telemarketing jobs. You can just TELL they are in India yet they are like, “Hello Kristin, This is Jane...” WTF?! Have you ever asked them what their REAL name is? Actually I was with someone while they did that. Lol. He was like, “Where are you located?” She's like, “We're in (some Fucked up name).” And he's all like, “Oh, is that next to Bangladesh?” She's like, “No sir, that's a neighboring country... (stupid Americans)” Oh come on, you know she was thinking it. I wonder if people in foreign countries have to learn where the US states are in school. Lol. Sorry about the “He's like, She's like” thing, but I'm tired and just don't feel like being creative. So bite me. Virtually, is fine. Bite me in person, and I'll make you number 3 on my list.

If This room had a corner that didn't have shit in it I'd prob be sitting there in a little ball sucking my thumb and rocking back and forth... but there are no open corners in here... so I'll just sit in my little rollie chair and rock back and forth instead. I'd suck my thumb and curl up in a ball, but it hurts to sit in a ball in this chair, and the truckers are fucked up enough, they don't need another reason to be like “WTF?!” So rocking and twittling my thumbs will just have to do. I've never twittled my thumbs before I got this job. I just thought everyone was stupid who said that... does that mean I'm stupid or does that mean... I forgot where I was going with this. Woo! Techno music... maybe this will wake me up. I need to get surround sound in this Guard House. Lol. I'd be rockin out in my little (okay, okay. BIG) uniform. That's a sight to see. But don't look here to see something like that... try Youtube, someone's done it.

You know how you know you're bored? When you stare up at the light above your head, and not only count that there are 57 dead flies/ dirt spots but you also try to make constellations out of them. I found O'Ryan but he's missing his sword. And I'm sure that's not how you spell it, but I don't feel like thinking. AND WHY THE FUCK DO YOU NEED TO BLOW THE HORN ON THE DAMN TRAIN 30 TIMES?! You blow it when you're crossing the tracks by a road... then you quit. Period. Wow... You know you've listened to a song too much, where there is a Live intro from a concert at the beginning thats a minute long and you know every word by heart. (“I Don't Like Mondays” by Bon Jovi and Bob Gildof on Bon Jovi's “One Wild Night” Live album.) Wow this is quite a paragraph isn't it? This is the third time I switched topics in just THIS paragraph. O well.

3:33am- TEXT!!!
3:35am- Yawn.
3:36am- Fixing typos on “TEXT”... it's too early.
3:37am-Realizing what this song is saying and loving how it relates to me right now. “I don't like Monday's. I wanna shut the whole day down...”
3:38am- It switched to Backstreet Boys- Shining Star (another yawn)
3:39am- Cramp in my neck from slouching so much is this damn chair...
3:40am- “Dog Chow. Backstreet Boys. Come on.”
3:41am- “youre my shingin star. That is what you are. There is no one like you abby. Angels everywhere. Everytime youre there. You will always be my baby....” not too bad for trying to type it as they sing it, huh?
3:42am- Now it's a techno song... can't type up this one, sorry.
3:43am- Lazily hanging my arms over the side of the chair... then realizing I probably look like a scarecrow.
3:44am- Runny nose.
3:45am- It's still 3:44, but I'm bored.
3:45am- Okay, this one's legit. PS- TEXT!!!

Oh Em Gee! Get me outta here. I'm turning preppy. If I'm not careful I'll master a foreign language before I get outta here. Oooh, Samantha Mumba... la la la... “Don't wanna love you if you don't love me, don't wanna need you if you don't need me too. Don't wanna tell you this now, but it wouldn't be right if I... didn't tell you this tonight...” Ooo. Someones in trouble! Hehe. You ever listen to a song, and I mean REALLY listen to a song, and understand the story line it's giving you. Then see the music video and you're like WTF. How did they get THAT out of THIS? I felt like that after I saw the vid for Gym Class Heroes song “Cupid's Choke Hold.” You listen to the song and you get the obvious understanding that this guy gets a girlfriend and he falls in love with her and thinks she's the one and every time it's a false call. But you watch the video and in the end he's actually got a good girl... but where does it give you that impression in the song? It doesn't!!! Oh, and btw, the “Good Girl” he finds in the video is his real life girlfriend AKA Katy Perry. She dates the lead singer of Gym Class Heroes. But yeah, I really didn't see that coming when I watched the vid. Haha. FUCK THIS DAMN FLY!!! I could stand next to a dumpster for 24 hours on a hot summer day and wouldn't get bothered as much as this Damn fly is bothering me. I'm gunna buy me a special fly swatter for this place... with a Skull and Cross Bones on it.

Dude, I'm listening to this song.. and it's ALL music. I mean, I'm two and a half minutes into this song and out of no where it's like, “I KNOW YOU WANT ME.” I'm glad Fletcher left already. Otherwise I'd be thinking how it might be a calling or something. That'd freak me the Fuck out. Haha. He's like... 60. Idk. He reminds me of one of those creepy old guys in the movies. You know, you have like a little kid running through the house scared bc he's paranoid about monsters under his bead, and then he hears a loud noise and freaks out. So he gets up and runs to find his parents but stops by this room that has a door slightly cracked and he pokes his head in there and this creepy looking old guy just turns around slowly and glares at him. Then the boy runs off again even more scared. Not realizing the old guy is just his Dad's co-worker waiting in his Dad's office for he to come back or something. And he's really a nice guy, but he just freaks the kid out... and it turns out he's really a serial killer and tries to kill his family or something Idk. But yeah, that's what he reminds me off. Minus the serial killer thing. Fletcher's normal. Lol. (Big Balls by ACDC is on. Lol)

4:05am- I wanna sleep bad.
4:06am- You's a hoe. HOE!... Why do you think you take a HOE to a HOtel? HOE tell everybody, even the mayor. Reach up into the sky to the HOEzone layer. Oh come on playa, once a HOE always. And HOE's never close, they open like hallways. So heres a wHOlE cake for your whole HOE crew. And everybody want some cause HOE's gotta eat too!

You can't turn a HOE into a house wife. HOE's don't act right. There's HOE's on a mission and there's HOE's on a crack pipe. Hey HOE. How ya doin'? Where ya been? Prolly doin' HOE stuff cause there you HOE again. It's a HOE wide world that we livin' in. Feline, feminine, fantasitcal, women. Not all, just some. You HOE who you are. There's HOE's in the room, there's HOE's in the car. There's HOE's on stage, there's HOE's by they bar. HOE's by near and HOE's by far. “HOE!”...”but can I get a ride”... “NO”...”come on nigga, why?”...Cause you's a hoe... HOE!

HEHE... I like this song, can't ya tell?

Well, I'm writing this using a size 10 font and this sentence is starting page 4. (4:18am) I hear the wind blowing. Sounds like it's blowing through a tunnel or something... like in the movies right before something bad happens and everyone dies... I'm gunna jinx myself with all this shit. Maybe I should stop. Haha. Idk. But I wanted to sleep right before that song came on... so I started typing it. So now I'm 13 minutes past that, and I still wanna sleep. I'm thinking about heating up a piece of that pizza, but I really don't wanna eat this early.. okay. I really don't wanna eat anyMORE this early. Lol. Buuut, it's 4:20 and I still have most of my tea. That's better than last time I was working. It was gone really quick. But I was doin a lot of talking with Devin being in here. Blah... I think all that sugar is getting the best of me. My stomach feels not normal. Haha.

I've been up for 4 and a half hours now, and I've been at work for 2 and a half hours... and Shane is still home sleeping... must be nice. Ugh. I can't say nothing. He does a lot to keep us where we are. Let the man sleep. He don't ever get a day off. He works Monday thru Friday 8-5 and then Saturday 8-12 and Sundays off, BUT he's been getting off early recently... for about a month now, still getting paid for a full day tho. And coming home and working with Russel to help fix up some of his rental places. So he still don't actually come home til 6 or 7. (Sundays included... not to mention they work before 8 half the time. They take care of calls before they even get to work.) Even tho the place they're working on right now is right next door to us. There is some dumb redneck fucker with a cowboy hat and one hell of an accent moving in there. I'm dying to see if he's got antlers on his truck. That man should go build a teepee in the woods somewhere. He don't need that place. Russel worked his ass off to fix that place up. And the guy's all like, Well I'm moving in there Monday whether you're finished or not. You don't tell Russel something like that unless you want Hell on earth. And I'm sure he doesn't. So Russel is trying to throw everything together but he's got to half-ass it all bc of Mr. DumbFuck. Oh well, it's his own fault. Lol. He's got plyboard cabnets that arn't painted or nothing. The guy walks in with his accent and goes... “I'm gunna hafta paint awl thayat afta I move ein?” I swear, Redneck lingo is worse than the “gangstas.” One thing is for shore tho... There are no suck thing as “wannabe” Rednecks. I mean, there are wannabe country people... but not wannabe Rednecks. Either you are one, or you're not one. There is no in-between.

Lol. I hear the truckers on the CB radio talking about welding. He's like. “I'll work on wayleding (weilding) mine bu mysayelf (myself) but I aint gunna work on heis (his) bu mysayelf.” Talking about four wheelers. I don't know if the guy is drunk, high, or just naturally fucked up, but I hear him talking, and there ain't no one talkin back... but he just keeps on a-talkin. Haha. I still haven't had anyone come in here tho. Not on my shift anyways.

Omg, I just checked my schedule and this woman has got me on 2-10 shifts for a lifetime. Lol. Not that I mind doin nothing.. I'd just like to do nothing at a decent hour. Haha. She's got me 2-10 on October 13, 14, 21, 22, 29, 30, and 31st. And November 6, 7, and 8th. So she's got me doing three days in a row instead of just two... but I still only get 16 hours a week. And at 7 dollars an hour, that sucks. I just wrote that in here so I'll have it when I go home. Not that you need to know or want to know my schedule. Lol. Okay, pizza time it is. My yawns are getting more frequent, and that ain't good. Lol.

Feels good to stand tho. The AC is on, and it's cold... OMG!!! Lol. I got thin crust on this pizza instead of the usual original crust. I like it. It's yummy. Shane liked it too, which I honestly didn't expect. But oh well. I never know when he's gunna be picky on me. I'm still learning. Like with his computer... it's kinda like a “Touch and Die” kinda thing. But everything else is still a mystery to me. Like if his rag is wet before he gets in the shower, it drives him crazy. It's got to be dry. And when he showers, if you put soap on him he gets all weird about it. He's got to do it however he does it. Idk. I forgot the details on that one. When he's in the shower or the bath, the shower curtain has to be closed and it has to kinda drape over the outside of the tub with a bit of water in it so it stays down and doesn't fly up and stick to him. And the little suction cup things have to be used. Before he gets out of the shower, he kinda squeegees himself off before he gets out bc he feels it's gunna get the towel too wet... which I'm like that to an extent, but with hair as long as mine you kinda can't be picky about wet towels. If you mess with his leg hairs while they're wet, and get a small section going in the other direction, he's got to fix it. Lol. He HATES to be written on with ink. He wears his underwear inside out... it drives me crazy but he says its softer. Lol so idk. He won't drink a drink if the air has been on it for too long... or so he says. His beer has got to be borderline freezing, but I think most people are like that. He doesn't like pepperoni. If the mouse pad on his computer isn't crooked, he can't use it... and he likes to use his top drawer as an ash tray... that's annoying as hell. Bc every time I see it, I wanna clean it. But then I have to tell myself no. Lol.

Well, now it's 5:51. A guy named Lynnwood came in and talked to me for a little bit. He seems like a kewl guy. I've got to correct something I said earlier. I forgot that Lynnwood is the one who takes Ricky to work. So there are three people here other than me. Lynnwood, Ricky, and Rocky. And something is itching me to hell and back and I don't have the slightest clue what it is. I had him laughin when I told him about my dirt constellations. Lol. Omg... there's a car coming in. And old blue blazer/explorer looking thing. Yes, I know one is Chevy the other is Ford... I'm gunna say it's a Chevy, whatever it is. But I was wrong. I see the Ford emblem on it now. Lol. They are here early tho. The next shift don't come in until 7. It's only 5:35. Only.. haha. Right. Only, my ass. I wanna sleep. Oooo, another one. Old blue Toyota pick up. And he's parking in front of my car. Hehe. He's probably jealous. Nah, he's probably like... Stupid Ford. Lol. I think that pizza helped me a little bit. I'm not really that tired right now. There were three pieces left from yesterday. I just ate one. I really don't want to eat anything this early. I feel like shit when I do. But that's kinda how it is. When Lynnwood came in here he told me that Ricky and Rocky were back there sleeping... must be nice. He's like... I tried, but I just couldn't do it. He only got like 2 hours sleep last night too. But he was telling me how he works 12 hour shifts, but he only works 14 days out of the month... so that's kinda kewl. Vacation every month. They get like a week off at a time. I wouldn't mind that at all. Haha. I'm not big on the whole 12 hour thing, but I wouldn't mind having his pay... idk what it is.. but I know for Damn sure that it's more than 7 bucks an hour.

Lol, you're probably reading this thinking... This is a Fucking book... about nothing. Why the Fuck and I still reading this. But then you realize there is actually personality and a bit of humor (hopefully) in it so you're kinda drawn to it. And you're sitting here reading this and then when you finish you're gunna scroll back up and you're gunna be like Damn that was long, but then you're gunna think... but it didn't seem like it was that long. And if someone were to disagree... I don't give a damn bc I'm sure they quit reading long before they red this part so they never knew that I even made this hypothesis. Haha, I used a big word. Charles Martin... arriving for duty. A supervisor. Finally. PS- If you never heard of Allele then you need to change that. They are a really sweet band. I'm listening to them now. This particular song is called “A Different Someone” off their “Point of Origin” album. They've got another one coming out... For some reason I think it's coming out this month... if it is, I want it! Lol. Woo! More peoples. This looks like a greenish pontiac of some sort. Can't tell. Lol... iTunes is on shuffle, Spears came on. Singing a song called “Do Somethin...” It sounds stupid as hell. Lol. Now it's Pink singing a song called “Walk Away.” I like this one. I finally got my first truck of the morning. Woo! It was Earl with WBT. Not that that means anything to you. But you know how it is. Lol. I got another person come in for work again too. Seems like I'm getting a little bit more traffic at least. It's about freakin time. It's 5:58. 5:59 now. But I mean Damn... I coulda used these guys earlier. Gave me something to look at at least. Better than finding constellations in the dirt spots. Haha. Another truck Woo! That was Jason with Elliot. He's kewl too. I like him. Him and Doc I'd say are my two favorite truckers. And Woody. Lol. And Jim... okay so I've got a few favorites. Haha. Those are just the guys with personality that stand out among the boring, lifeless zombies that usually come in here with that attitude like.. Life sucks, beat me with something hard so I can go home. Seriously. There is this one guy, Curtis who comes I here. Heather always bothers him about him not wearing his hearing aid. So when he comes in the Guard House, he puts them on. Bc he gets a check for those things or something. And Heather keeps saying she's gunna turn him in. Lol. It's kinda funny, but then again, if I was the one Heather was threatening... I'd listen too. Lol. 6:08... 4 more hours to go. Oh, and Jimmy came in too. He's the vending man. He's kewl. He gave me a free snickers the first time I met him. Good first impression, don't ya think? Haha.

Damn, I just realized, this is page 5. Well, the end of page 5. I'm almost on page 6. Wow... I really have been bored this morning, huh? Lol. I'm craving a Reese's right now. And it sucks... bc I don't want to eat sweets this early... I already tried. I don't need my stomach attacking me today. I've got enough problems. Haha. 6:12... blah... I got a headache thingy. Sucks. Maybe Shane's up now... nah. Not yet. Maybe in 30 minutes. He was so sweet last night. Lol. I hope he'll be like that tonight ;) While he was kneeling next to the bed last night playing with my hair and face, out of no where he told me he was so glad that I chose to come up here to live with him. And of course it was followed by an “I Love You So Much.” I love those moments. They're the kinda things you can sit back and think about and reminisce on all day long. It's one of those times when you don't realize you're actually staring off into space until you feel yourself start to smile... you know what I'm talking about. If you have a sensitive side to you... you know exactly what I'm talking about.

Ugh, I got to go to Walmart after I get off work. I gotta get a few pictures developed for Russel. I took some pictures of the trash the people scattered around the yard. They got evicted and now they're suing Russel for sexual harassment saying he was looking down their shirts and that their Dad saw him... That's complete bullshit for two main reasons. One, their Dad was never out here and Russel never met him, and two. If you saw them... you wouldn't even question the fact. Lol. Just trust me. Shane was there he knows, Sheldon knows. That's a mess. Oh well. Haha, and they're saying that they are suing for the 5k dollars of furniture he ruined... bullshit. There probably wasn't even 5k worth of ANYTHING in that place. That lady has been evicted out of so many places. Plus they took her to jail. She had a warrant out on her for writing too many bad checks. And they had the nerve to ask Russel for money to move into a new trailer and for 300 dollars to get her daughter out of jail... it was a mother, daughter and kids living there. It's a mess. Haha. O well, They're getting what they deserve. None of their accusations are going to hold up in court... and how are they even getting money for a lawyer? Lol. Tsk, tsk. Haha. Btw, this is page 6. My computer has an STD! Lol. That's what it says at the bottom in a little block thing. STD. I'm sure it stands for something other than Sexually Transmitted Disease, but ya know. It's a funny concept. Lol. I'm getting tired again. Time for another pizza if this doesn't clear up. Haha. It's a little square pizza, but it serves the purpose.

This is great. I'm eating pizza with a spork. Ooo, there's a nice Dodge 6 wheeler thing that just came in... I like that one. Lol. With those lights at the top of it and all. Straight black. That's a nice lookin truck. Once Shane gets his license Calvin is giving Shane the Dodge. It's an older one. But it's blue and has a chip in it. It's a racing truck. It's the only car they own that I haven't driven yet. Lol. And I want to drive it!!! Haha, and there's the van. I call it the kidnapper van. I forget who drives that thing. But it really looks like a kidnapper van. Lol. Anyways, it's now 6:50. I'm usually off this thing by 6, but since it's so slow I stayed on it til 7. So I'm calling it quits now. Yeah, all the people are starting to come in now. So I will talk to you guys lata!!!

PS- Someone comment on this thing. Whatcha think? Lol. Come on, give me some lovin. Haha.