Saturday, saturday. What a Saturday. Lol. Nah, nothing happened today. I couldn't sleep worth shit last night tho. It sucked ass. Between Shane kneeing me, being smushed up against the wall, and an ant biting me... it was one hell of a night. I didn't get any sleep until Shane got out of bed to get ready for work. But the thing is... he gets up, gets ready and gets dressed, then gets back in bed again. Lol. Until Russel comes and honks the horn. Then he kisses my forehead and runs out the door. So needless to say I woke up again after I was asleep for like 5 minutes. But when he left for work a little after 7 I finally got some sleep. Only til 10, but it's better than nothing.
Anyhow, when he came home from work he brought a friend. It's a giant horned beetle. Apparently it's more rare than... what did that site say.. Idk. It's more rare than it's close relative that's found mainly in Asia. But yeah, it's like half the size of your palm. Shane made me go buy the thing bananas... Damn bug gets better treatment than I do. Lol But that's okay. I got a pineapple and a yoohoo out of the deal. Haha. I had one of the baggers trying to flirt with me. Some old guy. He was trying to trick me by asking me how many horses I had on my hat... uh, one. "You sure?" Yes, it's MY hat. Lol. Weird peoples. O well.
Blah... right now I'm bored as hell. Shane is on Counter Strike yet again, and I'm here typing a blog trying to take up some time. You should have seem how many Fucking bulletins I posted on Myspace the other day.. Waaaaayy too many. And I did them all while Jackass was on his damn game. Yeah, I call him a Jackass. I also call him a Bitch and a Whore.. but it's all code for "I Love You" Lol. You should hear us around the house, it's hilarious sometimes. We'll just go on this streak of name calling. Never meaning any harm, just going until one of us has a brain fart.. which never really takes too long. Lol.
Hm.. last nights movie was Ace Ventura: When Nature Calls. The night before that it was Ace Ventura: Pet Detective. We watch movies nightly... and pay nothing for them. Haha. Ugh, sometimes I really don't know what the point of these things are, but other times it's nice to hold a conversation.. .even tho it's most likely with nobody. Lol. I really don't know if anyone ever reads this thing, but it helps me pass the time while Bozo over here is on his dumb game.
Ugh.. I couldn't tell you how much I hate that thing. One thing that really gets to me once in a while is the fact that he's so happy on it. I mean it kinda makes me feel bad bc... Idk. It's like I can't make him happy enough to want to be with me instead of that game. I know that's not how it is. I just feel like that sometimes. He gets on there and he's laughing and talking to his friends or whatever and talking about clans and teams and coding and all kinda of computer stuff... sometimes I wish that I could just hit a button and know all about all that stuff so he'd... Idk. Spend more time with me I guess. Like tonight when I cooked dinner, he wanted me to eat in the computer room with him bc he was still trying to help his friend on the computer. But when I went in there he was on the game and I asked him about it and he told me he's waiting for him to finish eating.. WTF? Then he changed the story again and said he was helping the other guys level up by letting them kill him... but if that were the case then why would he message them and apologize for playing so bad bc he was playing with one hand and trying to eat? So the way I saw that was... he wants to play that game so bad that he lies to me. It just... Idk. He gets so into it and I just feel really left out. When he's on the game I usually try to stay in there with him. I just mess around on my computer. But then when I try to talk to him, he doesn't hear me... I say it again, still no luck. Then I leave... and he doesn't even notice. Then maybe 30 minutes later he'll come out and I'll ask why he got off the game and he'd say, I turned around and you weren't there. And don't think that trick will work all the time... it doesn't. He'll find me, ask if I'm okay, I'll say yes, he know's I'm lying, but he just wants to get back on the game so he says ok, gives me a hug, and goes right back there. That's when I'm left standing there, staring at where he was just standing and wanting to burst into tears bc I want him to spend time with me and not that game. It really hurts sometimes. And I know he doesn't mean any harm by it... I try not to let it get to me but sometimes it just builds up and I can't help but let it bother me. Idk.
Anyways, I've rambled on long enough about the game and my issues and everything else. So I'll talk with you guys later. See ya...
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