AWOL

Today Shane and I had a very long talk inspired by a not so long argument. To sum it up, AWOL.

AWOL is A Way Of Life. Everyone has one and its no secret that we don't always agree with another persons "WOL" or Way Of Life. That can not be changed. At least not as easily as how you let it effect you. So, starting today Shane and I are working together to make the best of a "bad" situation. Lots of changes are in store for this coming season. Mainly from me.

There are lots of things about my personality that were shaped by the people around me and not all of them I am proud of. They are things that I have tried to change but they refuse to let loose their grip on me. So it's time for a new technique. Instead of getting rid of said personality flaws, I have decided, with the help of my amazing husband, to create a new way of expressing myself in those moments of reckless thinking and overwhelming frustration. A blog. Not a public blog, because those of you involved in my frustration would most likely take major offense to my built-up and over exaggerated interpretation of the current situation. But writing down all my thoughts is no good without someone to share them with. This is where my before mentioned amazing husband comes riding in on his mighty steed (a Mustang of course) of peeling paint and brake dust that he adopted as his own after we married. But that's another story :)

My amazing car stealing husband will read my blogs of anger and we will talk about it if needed. I'm pretty sure they will be self explanatory. None the less, my personality flaws can continue on while my feelings get released and my stress dies down. I'm hoping eventually this process will allow me to let loose of these things that urk me about myself.

This is just one of the new changes coming. Others include slapping a Joker grin on my face despite my feelings and keeping my life between Shane and I instead of talking them out with others. These are both to avoid clashes of the phenomenon previously refereed to as AWOL. My life is my business so I need to make sure it stays that way.

Also, I have recently came to the realization that no matter how many things I do to keep other people satisfied in the end everyone is still grumpy, including me. So why try in vain to please others at my own expense when I can at least make myself happy? -- This is the basis of my new WOL. From now on the goal is to put my happiness first as well as that of my family and once that goal is met then I can tend to everyone else. No more am I going to continue on feeling used and unappreciated. If I'm not happy with myself, then I guess everyone else is just going to have to learn to make their own bed.


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